a little riddle

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Terrified of even thinking about it, especially after what Dumbledore told me and Mattheo, I don't want to be a part of any of it

And yet I have no choice, there was a rumor going around about the golden trio finding a way to stop Voldemort. It sounded nice, him to be gone, but it meant Mattheo was going to be the next leader, and he would need me by his side

Never liked Hermoine, she would give me weird looks for 6th years straight. I had no problems with her, sometimes I felt like instead of her being In love with Ron Weasley she fancied Fred Weasley

Speaking of him, haven't seen him around, not surprised, after thanksgiving, my classes changed a lot and I was spending more time with Slytherins than Gryffindors

I missed George, I still miss him, with so much going on I don't think I'm ready to talk to him yet, I miss my best friend but I think it's better off like this

Sure they would not want to be associated with someone from a different side, the dark mark I hate it. If any of them found out, it would be the end of me

And there's Peter as well, he has been spending some time with Cedric recently, last time I heard he was going to ask him out, cute right.

And it leaves me to Tom, as much as I hated Daphne and Mattheo together, and jealousy taking over, I think I still felt something for Tom, but now I think it changed

I don't think I will be able to be with him ever, I was too attached to Mattheo, to even think about anyone else

I was upset and out of line, I'm going to apologize

And at the end, it's Mattheo, shivers crawl down my spine hearing his name. It's a new feeling, not feeling alone, having someone right by you

Both broken, yet can't be fixed, bad and good in different ways, he has been through hell

I hare the idea of being married to him, just 17, I don't think I'm ready yet, I have no family anymore at least what I can do is follow the dark lord orders

I meant what I said last night, and nothing was going to change my mind, as long as I see his face in the morning in my bed, I'm fine with it

I want to run away, from all of this, get a house far away in the muggle world, so no one can find me

Lunch

Boring as always, haven't seen him around, maybe he was running late or something, I shrugged my thoughts off and concentrated on what Draco was babbling about

"ya no she wouldn't let me sleep till 2 am last night" he laughed elbowing Blaise, "kept talking about random stuff, but she is nice" he continued talking as I stomped his knee

"She kissed Mattheo last night" I whispered into Pansy's ear as she rolled her eyes back at Draco, "I never liked her anyway," she told me trying to smile a bit

"Speaking of the devil" she looked in the direction where Elizabeth was walking, she looked pretty, I just noticed her making her way to sit next to me

"look I'm going to apologize, didn't know about Mattheos' relationship" she was cut off as I chimed in, "relationship?" I asked her, feeling someone standing behind us