Fuck Buddies ~xxxtentacion

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Trigger warning: discussions of Rape & Self harm

Two weeks later

Jahseh

I open Jaya's bedroom door, seeing her peacefully watching tv

She attempted suicide a couple weeks ago and I haven't seen her since...

I place the bouquet of roses on her night stand and lay beside her,

She turns and faces me

"Don't ever scare me like that again" I mumble and she sighs

I don't know why she attempted suicide or what caused it, all I knew is that she had fucked someone else and then a couple days later her mom calls me crying because Jaya was unconscious

I kick off my shoes and pull her into a hug, she doesn't hug back which was expected

"Thank you for the flowers" she mumbles looking down at her wrists

I looked too and her arms were filled with cuts

I sigh

"Jaya..."

She looks at me

"What's going on, why did u do that?" I ask and she stays quiet

"I was raped..."

I go silent unable to process what she just said to me, so many thoughts crowded my brain

"By who?" I ask

"Chris....because what u and stokeley did to him" she says quietly

I couldn't help but feel guilty because this was all my fault

"I'm sorry" I say lowly and she nods "it's whatever"

She slowly climbs on top of me and straddles me, I can't take my eyes off the cuts on her arms

She lifts my chin slightly so I look at her "I missed you" she says and I nod rubbing her thigh

"Missed you too"

"If I asked you to fuck me right now would you?" She asks catching me off guard

She begins rocking her hips

"Huh" I look at her confused "aren't you....you know? Scared of sex now?" I ask

"Yea but not with you, you make me feel safe" she mumbles

"Your mom is home, we can't" I say and she comes closer to my ear

"I'll be quiet" she says rocking her hips and moaning lightly

I wasn't expecting her to be like this, I thought she would be more upset and scared and I was just expecting different

She starts kissing on my neck and jawline then reaches for my sweats

"We're not fucking Jaya" I say to her not wanting to trigger a memory or make her upset

"I'm horny though" she sighs sitting besides me

I get up and lean over her looking her in her eyes

"You're beautiful" I say making her smile

I kiss on her stomach all the way down to her panties and I pull them down slowly

I listen to her lightly gasp as kiss the insides of her thighs before making out with her other set of lips

She moans lightly grabbing my dreads and pushing me closer

She started grinding against my tongue as more moans spilled from her mouth

I look up at her "you need to be quiet, your moms gonna hear" I laugh and she shrugs

"I don't care"

The room fills with her moans, moans that I've never heard come from her mouth, so what I was doing must've been better then sex

Her legs begin to shake and she throws her head back riding out her orgasm

"Fuck jah" she says breathlessly

"Your mom definitely heard u" I say and she shrugs

"I don't really care what she thinks anymore, she knows that this is what we do and she's just gonna have to learn to deal with it. She doesn't like the fact that I have sex when I'm not in a relationship"

I sigh "The truth is I do wanna be in a relationship with you, I'm just scared that I'll hurt u, or that you will hurt me"

She hugs me "I would never hurt you jah"

I rub her head "I know, and I'll make sure what happened with Chris never happens again"

Shorter update but I wanted to give you all something, will probably do a longer one later today once I gather some ideas
~liyah