Unholy Sinner [R-18]

Epilogue

Someday I can love you

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Aviona

Catching dreams.

Ang sarap pala sa pakiramdam na matutunan mong magpatawad at mamuhay ng tahimik.

I did not become so rich nor very popular. Simple lang ang naging buhay ko sa loob ng tatlong taon.

But three years is already enough for me to let go of all the pains I have in my heart. Kailangan ko ding magpakatatag. I need to be strong because I have to. For myself.

Pinilit kong tinanggap na kahit mismong pamilya ko ay hindi ako kayang tanggapin. Mahirap pero kailangan. Sawa na din akong ipagsiksikan pa ang sarili ko. This time, I know my worth.

" One way ticket to Manila, Philippines please" Wika ko sa attendant.

" Okay ma'am" I paid my ticket afterwards.

Sometimes, the best way to move on is not always choosing to let go of the past but choosing to grab the opportunity of a new beginning. Nevertheless, I have chosen both. Memories. Hindi naman lahat ay kinalimutan ko na. Lahat ng bawat sandaling kapiling ko si Luke ay nasa puso't isipan ko parin. I've never forgotten him. Because he is the first and last man in my life. Hindi ko alam kung ako pa ba ang babaeng nasa puso niya o hindi na. Kung hindi na, I'm still happy for him. I won't complain. Siguro nga ay hindi kami para sa isa't isa kung ganon.

Two days from now, it's going to be the election day in the Philippines. I wonder if Luke will still run for governor once more.

Parang kailan lang nung umalis ako. I don't know what happened to him after. Sinadya kong putulin ang anumang koneksyon ko sa kaniya. Right now, I can say that I am ready to face him. Whatever will be my fate when I see him again, I will gladly accept it.

Kung nag-asawa na ba siya, tatanggapin ko. I will be happy for him. Or kung may girlfriend na ba siya, wala na akong balak pang manira ng relasyon.

Para akong shonga na nakatingin lang sa harapan ng flight schedules habang kinukumpirma ko ang oras ng pag-alis ko.

Canada. It's the place that made me realize so much things to life. The place where I've met friends, best of friends. Mga taong naging karamay ko nung nangailangan ako ng lubusan.

I boarded the plane after. Hindi ko alam kung may babalikan pa ba ako sa Pilipinas. But still, hope is in my heart.

Na sana single pa si Gov hanggang ngayon.

It took me hours of plane travel. Natulog na lamang ako buong biyahe ko. I woke up and slept again. Hindi ko na namamalayang nasa bansa na pala ako. Hindi ko alam ngunit kinakabahan akong bumaba ng eroplano. I still smiled despite the fact that I don't have a family to go home to. Na iyung iba kong kasabay sa eroplano ay may magsusundo pa sa kanila. Si ma'am Claire lang ang sinabihan ko na uuwi ako ng bansa.

Huminga ako ng malalim ng makababa na ako ng tuluyan mula sa eroplano. Ang sarap langhapin iyung hangin mula sa sarili kong bansa.

Luke

" Gov handa na po ang team para sa kampanya niyo mamaya" It was Esther who took my attention, my PA.

" Yes, thank you" The whole gymnasium is crowded. It's already my second time running for the same position. I smiled when I realized the reason for my public service. It wasn't just because of my will to serve but because it was what I've promised her.