Love Takes Time: A Miefer Love Story

Doubts

Sometimes I wonder if love is worth fighting for, but then I remember your face and I'm ready for war.

- Unknown

Mika

Ginusto ko ba to? Hindi ko naman alam ha... Maintindihan kaya niya ko? Goooood! I'm going nuts kakaisip!

Kung kailan tumahimik ng kaunti buhay namin, tsaka ganito...?

After the encounter we've had post that interview, and Iloilo... oh God, Iloilo... Eto na naman, and this time, hindi ko na talaga siya masisisi...

Mamaaaaaaaaaaa!!! I could not go through another tampuhan.... That Iloilo experience was my nightmare realized... It's the worst! I feel like nag-mature na nga ako with that... Never thought I'd say this about Adam, pero kailangan talaga pumasok pa siya sa eksena???

Kill. Me. Now.

Flashback

They say crying is a good way of relieving stress. Then why am I still miserable as hell? And why are my nerves still tight as fuck.

My pride he damned, I need to hear his voice.

But... What do I tell him? Pakahirap maging babae, amp. Had I been a guy, edi marunong sana ako manuyo... Ugh.

I picked up my phone and started typing.

Please call me? Too pathetic. Forgive me? Wait, wala naman akong kasalanan... Huhu, sakit sa ulo, kailangan ko na ng tulong!

After several rings, she finally answered.

"Mikang!!! I miss you bestie, bakit ka napatawag bigla?"

"BF..." I yowled like a lost puppy and heaved a huge mournful sigh.

"Hey, what's up? Is tita ok? Is it your sibs?

...Is it Kief?"

"Mmmm." I nodded regardless if she can't see me.

"Nag-away kayo? Kakauwi niyo lang galing parehong panalo from Unigames ha... Sige, tell me everything."

So I did.

When I finished, I didn't know what I expected to hear from her but it certainly wasn't what she said next.

"Mika you're my best friend since high school and I love you like a sister but you know you can be difficult at times right?

I mean kanino ba nag-originate ang word na sprak?

Please don't take this the wrong way, pero nakakainggit ka nga eh. Biruin mo, you found someone like Kiefer.

Someone who cares and understands you, who supports you without question kahit ano pang sabihin ng ibang tao diyan, and who loves you unconditionally.

So please, just this once give in. You're suffering, he's suffering, why torture yourselves?

Don't be that girl please?"

"Anong sasabihin ko?"

"Don't make it complicated. Say what you wanna say and make sure you mean it.

He's a simple guy. When you say you love him, hindi kami bulag not to see how much that alone makes him happy."

Love, yes, I do love him. So much that I sometimes question whether I can truly make him happy.

I've tried to curb my neediness, wanting to be strong for him.

I joke at my own possessiveness, hoping he never takes it seriously.