Trigger Warning: Attempted Suicide
I remember hanging myself
early in the morning,
probably around six am.
It's ironic, now,
to think that I tried to end my life,
five years after it started,
in a bathroom
with shoelaces
two days after my birthday.
I was born at 6:15 in the morning,
and my mom said she struggled so much to keep me alive
and yet ever since the moment I failed to breathe
and they forced air back into my lungs
I have been fighting to get it out.
They caught me at five,
and they shouted at me,
and I remember the way my mother told me I was overreacting
and that I had nothing in life to be upset about
because my life was perfect and easy
and hers wasn't
so why was I trying to hurt myself?
I remember the tangled threads of the shoelaces
and I remember digging them back out of the trash after my mom threw them away.
I put them in my pocket to keep them safe.
Later, I would turn them into a necklace.
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Colors I Cannot See
PoetryChildhood is a time of joy and despair. A time of love and hatred. A time of growth and stunted reflections. ______ Nothing Graphic in this book. However, the themes are dark. Content/Trigger Warning: Abuse, childhood abuse, attempted suicide, self...