It was in that moment
That I realized
I realized that
I was the type of girl who would stay near you
Always
even after you died
Earnest fingers would dig into my skin begging me to give in
My gaze set towards the wall
In and out my breath escapes
My body lay heavy near your cold embrace
Moonlit evenings would flash before my eyes
And immovable I would lay searching my own guise
Quiet would be the name of the room we lay
Fingertips with no pulse would be my driving fascination
A slight whiff of angel food cake
Good and evil swirl their swords above your head
I lay motionless excited to be led
Take me, Id whisper with strong vigor
Even though my body tense with defense
I don't want to bend to your will but I long to be led to this bed
Where I lay
With you
unmoving and breathe released softly
For it is these moments in the fever of dreaming that I feel the most free
The most alive
No lies
No heartbeat
Patient I lay, awaiting my own demise
I'll imagine petals falling from the ceiling
An emblem of my constant day dreaming
I'm afraid but I'm not
I'm suicidal, yet so alive
Nothing but me will drive
Countless pearls will fall from me, crashing like glass against my souls reprieve
I will breathe and breathe continuing to hold on to that distant song
You matter to me
I'll laugh endlessly
Madly fixated in my own madness
Allowing myself to feel silly beyond desperation
I'll sink like ships in the ocean
I'll laugh through the waves even while being drowned by its icy cold chill
I will stay alive
I'll lay and look in your eyes
But
I will stay alive
My stomach will shrink when it realizes my only real nourishment came from the soul that lingered so close to mine
My mind will slowly stop when true peace is met only with your gaze
My limbs unmovable and unmotivated
My eyes won't blink
I will lay there
For as long as it takes
For my silly and chaotic mind to intertwine with reality
It may take years, it may only take moments
But there I will lay
Until I feel it all fall away
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