I know him
That silhouette across the room
He grabbed my hand
In the bed of his truck
We both expressed feeling
Stuck.
I bared my soul
Even if it wasn't the whole
Quick moments of laughter
Genuine moments flutter
Before my eyes
Was I wearing a disguise?
Or is there a reason why there's no recollection in your eyes
We grew up together
Best friends
You were the one who decided to cross that line
On a couch in your basement
Saying that it took you all this time
Your true feelings
Feelings you felt you had to hide
Kissed me.
You kissed me.
A surprise mid sentence
Said you'd waited years
Is that what you thought I wanted to hear?
Did you think you were being kind?
Am I that blind
Or has time really shaped us
Differently
Brief glances
No words brush past our ears
Even if I said something
Would you hear?
Why is it you seem to shudder under my gaze?
Is it guilt?
Why can't you look at my face?
How easily I was tossed to the side
You were the one who took me by surprise
You were the one who asked me not to hide
Texting me late at night months after you disappeared from my life
Giving me butterflies
Knowing full well that you wouldn't follow through
With the words you so carefully placed in my mind
Do you always send text messages like that
To girls whose hearts you broke only a few months ago?
I feel hot as my anger begins to rise
Just look at me!
Am I not important?
Am I so insignificant that you can't acknowledge me?
My existence.
An existence you once held so dear
As you brushed your lips against mine
The words I told you all those late nights
The way our hearts would beat
I didn't count on any of it being mine
Feeling the pressure of time
Then that one night
You asked for a kiss goodbye
And I gave you that kiss
And a million reasons why I couldn't stay
Is that where there was a delay?
Was I a summer fling?
A girl you felt would be easy to wring of emotion
You called me special
You traced my hands in your palms
We listened to all our favorite songs
You held me close
Maybe this is how love stories go
How the hell was I supposed to know?
I was young
You were experienced
In me
My heart
Moving around in the dark
I'll still never forget the message you sent me that day
I thought we were just friends
What a fucked up thing to say
Took me two years to feel okay
I wrote you my whole world
You wanted me on your hook
But then told me I wasn't worth a second look
Had you been a stranger I probably would have sensed the danger
But no
You had been in my life for years
Listened to rants
Brushed away tears
You were in my heart and mind
A friend at that time
I didn't want to ruin us like this
But you did.
One fucking kiss
I never understood why
All of this
Because I saw you today
And
You wouldn't look me in the eye
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