Today. I don't really know how to feel about this day. I've been expecting this since the beginning but now that it came, I feel confused, empty and unsure of what to do next.
As the rain pours down, the sadness that surrounds the place whips me. All of them, his crew and a few friends and family, weep in loss. I am the one with the loss, but why do I feel like he was nothing. He didn't treat me like his own. I was always reprimanded, sometimes forced to be perfect. Not a single sign of love came from him just as not a single tear fell from my eye.
"El, condolence to your family." Levi stood beside me, rubbing my back. He was always the friend who accepted my imperfections.
"Hmm." My father was my only family, I guess. But he preferred to be Pres. Ezekiel Calder rather than to be my father. I can't blame him, my grandfather was hard on him. Maybe he wanted me to be the same, but I'm just not the right person for his throne.
One by one they left me, it'll take a lot of time to sink in. He'll never be back, and I'll remind myself that. He'll never be back to change and try to be my father.
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