"common congestive heart failure" nurse jane holds my hand
i can't believe it. i know i was going to die..but now?
now i can't get new lungs.
now i can't visit all the places i've wanted to go to.
i can't live to see my best friends grow up, or my family.
i can't live to see ethan.
i'm devastated. heartbroken.
"so no lungs?" i ask sadly
"no lungs. i'm sorry etta"
"how long do i have?" i look up to her
"a year maybe two if you're lucky" she smiles sadly
"i-can i please leave now?" a tear trickles down my cheek
"yes etta. i'm so sorry" jane also sheds a tear
as i walk to my room i see ethan
"ethan! i- i can't do this anymore" i hug him tight
he was all i had here
beside nurse jane, the only one i cared for here was him
and he cared about me, i hope
"what? etta talk to me" ethan hugs me and rubs one hand through my hair
"can we sit down in your room?" i look up at him with my tear stained face
"of course let's go" ethan walks me to his room
"i have pulmonary edema" i say to ethan sadly
"what is that?" he asks leaning over to me
"a heart condition. my heart isn't pumping enough blood and the mucus is sticking to the fluids it creates instead of leaving my body" i say staring at the ground "i'm going to die ethan"
"etta don't say that" ethan hugs me
"i am. jane told me i have about a year maybe two if i'm lucky"
"i'm so sorry" ethan grabs my hand
"i knew i wasn't going to be alive much longer, but this?" i look at ethan "this sucks"
"i know etta. and i'm here for you i promise"
"i can't even get new lungs" i cry
"don't think about it like that etta. let's do all the things you've wanted to do" he stands up "you've wanted to go midnight driving right?"
"yeah" i smile a bit
"then let's fucking do it. tonight" he smiles at me
i smile to myself, ethan was always so nice. it sucks that he's here for an awful thing. but as long as we have each other, we will make it worth it
"meet me in the cafeteria at midnight. we're leaving this place" ethan smiles
"i'll be there" i smile brightly
ethan knew how to make things so much better. he was so selfless
"now do your regimen" ethan lightly pushes me as i laugh
ethan
7:17 pm
"jane please. if i don't do this etta will probably kill herself before pulmonary edema and cystic fibrosis will" i beg nurse jane to leave the back exit unlocked
"fine" she finally gives up "but! you better be back before i check up on the both of you tomorrow. also make sure she brings her portable oxygen and nose cannula"
"thank you thank you thank you" i hug my nurse
"you really care about her huh?" she hugs me back laughing
"yes" i smile
"alright well i gotta check on etta before y'all head out" she winks at me as i smile to the ground
i really like etta. but i'm scared. what if she dies and i lose the girl i'm falling for?
etta
11:57
"shit!" i mutter as i look at my clock
i put on my slippers and grab my portable oxygen and nose cannula
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i take one more glance at my outfit before leaving and make way to the cafeteria
"hey" i say to ethan
wow he looks hot
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his hair a little messy, his brown sweatshirt, everything about him was adorable
"take a picture it lasts longer" ethan laughs
"sorry you just look really bad" i wink
he laughs once more before grabbing my hand and pulling us towards the back exit
