As bad as we are now

Chapter three - The break down

I'm at class thinking about the dinner last night, my parents were being nice because now I know that my grandmother has a cancer, is in the beginning of it  so the doctors hope she will be fine, and so do I.

 I heard my brother cry last night in his room maybe because of the news, he always had a great passion for our grandma, it doesn't mean I don't have it also but I'm kind of cold in this situations, I don't know if that's a good or bad thing but that's me. I don't feel good this last days I don't know why, my mind seems to be my enemy right now

My heart is racing so hard I almost feel it jumping from my chest. I need to breath.

"excuse me can I go to the bathroom? thanks." I don't even wait for the teachers answer and I get up

"wait wait wait. where do you think you're going ?" the teacher says to me when I'm at the door

"to the bathroom" I look back at him

"you can't go, it's not allowed. Do you have a paper that says you have problems and just get up like that?" he says and lifts his hand

"oh I don't have problems, I just need to go"

"then sit down Lara." silence is in the room "now!" he screams and I roll my eyes and I sit again, just waiting for the class to be over.

The bell as finally ring and I'm the first person to get up.

"I'm going home... I'll call you later." I speak fast and quite to Mali

"what? we still have class." she puts her book inside of her bag

"I'll just call you later okay!?" I'm not hoping for another response and I get out of class.

I put almost all of my books in the locker the fast as I can. The hallway is a mess, there's people pushing each other to pass and I feel the panic in my body, the moment I put my foot outside tears appear in my eyes and I'm not sure why, I just want to leave this place.

I pass all students that are outside and I see Calum with some new friends he probably as now, I turn my face away from him and start walking again to a short cut that leads to my neighborhood, it's been a while since I walk in it, but I choose to take that way.

Calum POV

It's the second day of school and I'm already regretting moving to this town, Mali seems to fit quite well with this people, maybe i should do the same.

I feel someone hitting on my back that makes my body to move.

"oh, sorry dude" a tall, blonde guy with a football shirt says to me

"it's fine" I say to him and I look at his team that obviously is looking at me

"never saw you in this school, you new?" he throws the ball to his mates and turns to me again waiting for my response

"yeah." I nod and I keep my answer short

"oh cool , you going to participate in the team?" guess my words have been eared

"no I don't think so, it is not my type of sports." I actually love American football but since the other school i try not to gain much friends and to be in a team equals to have many friends, so no.

"oh... what do you play then?" he looks curious

"nothing now... I just ... run." it's true I run every night or in the morning it depends when I feel too.

"oh you're a runner. you should try to get in the team" I do a no face " just saying" he lifts is arms and smiles

The bell rings and everybody starts moving inside to class.