have you ever
become so fascinated by a book,
that you begin to believe
you too
are living within those pages?
i have
and sometimes
i am convinced
that i am lost forever,
somewhere within those words
the print
surrounds me,
drawing me farther
and farther
into the story
i am her,
and she is me;
we are the same person,
loving and laughing and crying and mourning
because of him
i have disappeared
from reality,
because the spine of the novel
has grown fingers
and seized me by the heart
i see him before me,
body frail and face ashen,
and i think to myself,
what if
this was my actual life?
would i
be as strong as her?
or would i
simply crumble
in his wake?
because i have
surrendered my soul
to what lies
between the two halves
of that blue cover
and i want to know
what kind of cruelty
could steal such a beautiful person,
filled with so much life,
from this world
but then i realize,
that maybe,
it was better
that his magnificent heart
was stolen away
no one
should have the privilege
of loving him
like she did,
like i did
there is laugher
and there are tears,
and my resolve wavers,
as i turn the pages;
i am breaking
and as the last words
surge through me,
i feel both relief
and dread
rankle in my bones
it is over,
it is over,
it is over;
i do not
want it to be over
the fault in our stars,
by john green;
my heart is shattered,
and yet,
i am in love
because now
i am left
with the jagged remains
of the life that i had lived
within those pages
i am left to attempt
to resume my routine
without the lovely weight
of the book
on my shoulders
i am left to piece together
the fragile bits
of my emotions,
which have been pushed and pulled
in every direction
because some infinities
are bigger than other infinities,
and the infinity
that i experienced
is over
>> so another book-based poems. i can't help it, i'm sorry. i take no credit for the brilliant plot line of the fault in our stars. every reference to the novel is credited to john green.
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Poetrypoetry is a vice. ➳ 2014 watty awards winner for poetry ➳ gorgeous cover by @mountainy