Desired Release

2

I groan, pulling myself up off the kitchen floor; Alpha decided it would be fun to hit me again. I dont even remember what happened. one minute i was cooking the next i was on the floor being beaten by the alpha

"stay down bitch it's my turn" i hear Luke cry out

*abuse*

i feel the kick before i see it coming straight at my ribs, i hunch over trying to allow myself to heal not daring to show it hurts, i might now be an omega but i have beta blood in me i can't show weakness i watch as Kyle walks in the room smiling like a mad man before running at me full force and hicking into my stomach. i hold back the bile rising in my throat not daring to throw up
"shes feisty isnt she, not showing pain" Kyle spits out before spitting on my face and delivering another kick to me. i watch in shock as Luke grabs a whip and starts hitting the air with it trying to make sure it will hurt. i look out in the corner of my eye to see a small crowd of the pack house livers watching. while only around a hundred wolves live in the pack house another two hundred or so live in their own accommodation and look after themselves.

the whip cracks down on my spine making me hold back a deadly scream 'if anytime is the best time to come out its now' i scream in my head hoping that my wolf will come back but to no avail
"how doesn't this hurt you" luke growls making me realize he is trying to show i am weak.
"it hurts, trust me it does but I'm not going to show it, I'm stronger then that" i hiss out making him hit me again harder i hold all the pain in, hoping to pass out before i show weakness

*abuse over*

i wake up confused, 'how did i get to my cell?' i think to myself, i wince as i try and get up
"dont worry about work, Luna has ordered you off duty until the preparations for Lukes birthday" Andy smiles at me i nod.
"do you remember what happened?" he questions i just nod again
"i hope you haven't gone mute on me" he laughs out i smile
"no just really sore" i laugh back wincing as i do so.
"you were amazing you know, didn't show pain, everyone was impressed and when you passed out the luna came in and growled at everyone" he smiles now sitting in the door way of my cell
"any way you can help me to the chair?" i question already knowing i need to get off the floor, the mattress not as thick as it once was
"of course" he smiles helping me up and slowly moving to the chair.
"you know your mate whoever they will be will be so impressed with you" Andy smiles once again, does he ever stop smiling?
"if he can even find me" i comment he looks at me shocked
"why do you say that?" he questions, his smile gone. i sigh out.
"my wolf is gone, i have never shifted, you know as much as i do what that means" i smile he looks at me
"how long has she been gone?" he groans
"since i was retitled" i smile becoming weak he just nods.
"what if i could help you shift? it may bring your wolf back and even if it doesn't your mate will be able to smell you. we have a lot of packs coming for Lukes birthday I'm sure he will show" i look up at him like he had grown two heads.
"shifting without a wolf is one of the most painful and dangerous things to do, only two people have survived" i growl out is he really trying to kill me?
"you are strong Millie i have faith it will work" i nod
"fine" i groan, i know it has to happen
"you're weak it will work best now" he smiles at me i close my eyes and nod already knowing whatever he is going to do to make me shift is going to hurt. i watch as his eyes gaze over telling the alpha not to come down here or let anyone down. knowing the alpha he will just assume I'm going to be beaten and that andy wants privacy
"ready?" he questions i nod already scared of what's about to happen.

i watch as Andy shifts into his dark brown wolf, i gulp he has to be bigger than a pony. i watch as he stalks up to me tearing into my leg, i scream a deadly scream the pain shooting throughout my leg, he continues on tearing into my limps it all stops when a deadly snap is sounded throughout the room i look down and see my ankle was transforming Andy shifts back grabbing my hand to help me onto the floor
"i will be here every step" he smiles sadly at me making me nod before screaming again

my screaming continues on for a few hours before i stop screaming.
"you're beautiful" he smiles i look down at myself and see a beautiful black paw i move around a bit smiling at nothing in particular
"image yourself not in wolf form" Andy smiles at me i nod and image my human form transforming back
"good to see that the beta blood is still very strong" i look down at where he is looking and notice i transformed back into my clothes like betas and alphas do i smile jumping up and down
"my wolf didn't return" i smile sadly he just nods
"maybe not but you can shift into a wolf which means your mate can smell you now" i just nod happily.