The Broken (Book 1: Broken series)

Mourning...

Losing someone hurts, missing that someone hurts even more, but wanting them back KILLS you. 

Silo

I cant imagine what she been through all those weeks there, i took her in to my room and laid her on my bed not caring if there would be blood on my sheets i still feel the tears falling and i didnt care if anyone saw, i walked in to my bathroom and took a small towel and a bucket of water and walked into the room again, i set the bucket on the floor and stared at my mate's lifeless body still feeling so guilty for not saving her in time, i slowly took off the shirt she was wearing well more like rip it off cause it wasnt a shirt anymore then i proceed to take off her pants, also ripped from the torture she was in then i dipped the towel in the bucket and wipped her wounds carefully, she had blood all over her i had to dump the bucket of now blood and fill it with water i did that a few times till she was all clean i covered her body and walked out to get some clothes for her i was on my way towards her room when amy came out of hers

"i need to see her silo" she said her voice breaking

"let me dress her first" i said and she nods

"i'll help you" she offered

"no...i want to do it alone" i said and she nods again looking very sad

"can you atleast help me find her clothes" i asked giving her something to do she nods and we walked to kira's room her scent was strong in here and i saw her sitting on the bed smiling up at me and i felt the tears again

"i miss her too" said amy and i turned to look at her standing in front of kira's dresser holding some of her clothes

"i been imaging her walking around here or playing with christiana" she said her voice breaking

"we all miss her" then she sobbed i walked up to her and held her shoulder and she turns around and sobbed on my chest and i held her and cried with her

"i-i-i j-j-just c-c-cant b-b-belive s-s-she's g-g-gone" she said sobbing

"i know" i said still not believing it myself, she's a fighter she never gave up on anything she set her mind to she always suceeded in everything we stayed like that for a few minutes till amy turned around and started looking for kira's clothes and i went to sit on her bed i looked around her room then i laid down on her bed and inhaled her sweet scent i took her pillow to my nose and inhaled again then i heard voices out in the hallway i got up to see who and saw chris talking to anna "we cant tell her" said chris and anna nods they both looked at me and i nod my head

"after i dress her up would you like to see her?" i asked and chris glared at me

"what do you think?" he asked and i nod ignoring his tone, he is greiving and i just asked a stupid question i was about to go in kira's room again when he sighed

"im sorry" he said and i looked back at him

"no its ok, your greiving i understand" i said and he nods

"i miss her" he said

"we all do" i said and he nods and held anna who was now crying and i walked in to see amy holding out a white dress and i smiled

"thank you amy" she just nodded and walked out i held the dress in my arms and walked out then i bumped into amy

"i need to see her now" she said i knew that she couldnt wait to see her so i had to agree

"ok then" i walked around her then made my towards my room with amy i walked in and let amy in she took hesitant steps in then i closed the door and walked over to kira, amy stood a few feet away staring at her and i slowly lifted her and put on her bra since she wasnt wearing one, i had a hard time doing it since i didnt know how to hook it and holding her at the same time then i felt amys hand stop my hand

"let me do it" she said and i stepped back and let her do it while i held kira's body then we went on to her underwear which i did, then i was about to grab the dress when amy stopped me

"let me close her wound first" i looked at her confused and she closed her eyes and put her hands on top of her then mumbled a few words then the wounds started to heal leaving no trace of any, and the swelling from her face went down to normal after a few more minutes she put her hands down and nod so i grabbed the dress and walked over to amy and help put her in it, after that i held her body looking at her beautiful face while she combed her long beautiful black hair after that i laid her back down and fixed up her dress again then amy mumbled

"i'll get the others" then walked out i stared at my beautiful mate and gave her one last kiss then the door opened i stepped back to let her family come say their last goodbyes to her.

After they left i climbed up the bed next to her and laid down holding her hand

"i miss you my love" i said looking at her

"theres not a day that goes by that i dont regret what i did...i always thought that what if i accepted you would we be in a diffrent situation"  i sighed

"it hurts...i dont know if i can make it" i said feeling the tears coming out

"i havent cried like this since the day you left...yes i did cry when you left it broke my heart just being away from you, but this this is different...knowing that your gone is just something i cant handle" i caress her face

"i cant live without you kira" i said sobbing

"i just cant" i sobbed even harder

"im so sorry kira..i really am! i wish i could've came sooner!" i squeezed her hand

"please please god bring her back to me!" i said looking up at the roof hoping someone out there could hear me i put my head on her chest still sobbing then i started singing bruno mars song talking to the moon

"I know you're somewhere out there Somewhere far away I want you back I want you back My neighbors think I'm crazy But they don't understand You're all I have You're all I have" forgeting some of the lyrics i moved on to the others

"Talking to the Moon Try to get to You In hopes you're on the other side Talking to me too Or am I a fool who sits alone Talking to the moon" i sang those lyrics till i fell alseep.