love hurts,is it really worth it? (An Austin Mahome & Alex love story)

Chapter 5 : flashback : i want to give his heart a break

Arri POV

Next Morning I woke up feeling happy & giddy remembering last night we'd Alex..He made me forget..Forget everythig...When I was with him i felt like everything was gonna be alright ..like i was finally free from my past...from the accident...there was no reminders..& i knew he cared for me ALOT..

FLASHBACK

I had just gone in after saying goodnight to Alex & was taking my coat of when the door bell rung

I went to open the door & saw alex standing their awkwardly

I just looked at him & gave him a raised eyebrow

"Umm sorry arri umm..I just wanted to tell u tonight was amazing & ur awesome ummumm i know we only met yesterday & all but uuummm ive just gotta tell u this..umm"

"Just spit it out alex"

"Okay..I like you ..i like u alot ..I know ur still trying to cope with your ex's death..um yeah austin told me but..I just had to say it i really like you & i guess im hoping u like me back" he gives me a slight hopefull smile

I hadnt expected that at all...I thought he only liked me as a friend and that was it ..I didnt know what to say it was a total suprise...

Alex finally spoke after the long awkward silence & shook his head "I didnt think you'd like me back ..Im sorry.." He started walking away

As I was left standing on my doorstep i thought back to that afternoon & how much fun me & alex had & how he had made me smile &  forget everything & how he was my best friend..my only friend here & how i couldnt afford to loose him...

"Alex wait" I shout

Alex slowly stopped & turned around looking really down & upset

I ran to him & hugged him tight to me & whispering against his neck

" I'm sorry i dont wanna loose u..im just ...i dont know...but i like you too" I finnaly tell him knowing it would make him happy, he had made me happy so I wanted to make him happy he deserved it ,he looked like the type that had his heart broken before...yes i may not like him that way yet...but i might someday..I knew i already like him as a best friend 

I knew what it felt to have a broken heart...I have one.&.I doubt it will ever be fixed

so I didnt want to break his heart i wanted to give his heart a break

so thats why i end up asking him.....

"Will you be my boyfriend?"

He looked at me shocked,Like he never though those words would ever come out of my mouth

Then he did what i didnt expect...he kissed me

The kiss was soft & sweet,full of passion ...but there was no fireworks like people say they get in movies or butterflies like i used to get when nathan kissed me...

I sigh to myself 

I watch to many movies...

maybe this was the best kiss in the world i was just to dumb to realise...Im just greedy i guess

I push those thoughts away & looked at alex who had the biggest smile on his face

"Does that answer your question arri? alex asks giving me a teasing smirk

I giggled ...THIS BOY ;) " haha yes it does"

He just hugged me & looked at me with his big brown eyes like i was angel...like i could do no wrong

I felt a pang of guilt,What if i end up braking his heart? 

What if.....

Alex kissed my cheek& said "Ive got to go now byee gorgeous" which instantly brought me back to earth

I blushed but it was dark so i knew he couldnt see it..I Hoped

"Night jerk" I replied smiling 

He kissed me one last time & left chuckling to himself

I watched him go

asking myself if I was doing the right thing

by going out with him

Was I even ready?

What if i start to fall for someone else?

I finally headed back to my house ..tiptoed quietly to my room

washed my face,cleaned my teeth got into my pgs & fell asleep

dreaming of a boy with curly hair & hazel eyes...

*FLASHBACK ENDED*

It must of been Nathan I dreamt of thinking back to last nights dream it can't of been Austin..That would be so wrong i mean since last night i was going out with his best friend...

I never heard the boy in the dreams voice so I cant be certain

Ughh i overthink to much of course it was Nathan..I sigh to myself & get in my car since i have to drive as jaxon has gone to water polo this morning...

Before I get in someone taps me lightly on the shoulder..I feel warm tingles spread throughout my body...

I instantly knew who It was only one person made me tingle like Nathan used too

It was Austin

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