First Love

Repeative Mistakes

We're under pressure,

seven billion people in the world trying to fit in

- Justin Bieber ( As Long As You Love Me )

Chapter 10

Yeah? I replied

There was something in me that wanted to burst in tears and another part of me that wanted him dead.

"Is this Diana ? "

Ok, now i wanted him dead was he not the one that called me ?

"Yeah , but you should know that aren't you the one that called me ? I retorted with a hint of " annoyance"

" Your number isn't in my phone , I memorized it. "

"Why do such a thing when you barely communicate with me in any manner shape or form. "

" Remember the project Ms. Susan gave us six grade year. 'What would happen if all cellphones were wiped of all it's information ?' Following that she made us memorize six phone numbers and names. Well you were one of mine ."

I felt a tad bit flattered but knew a lot had changed since that year.

I kept my defensive demeanor.

" Ok, thanks for the trip in memory lane but why call me before the sun is up? " I flatly questioned.

" My dad came back last night. He was beyond wasted and tried to hit my mom

cause she threatened to call the cops ."

Miguel's dad had been gone for two years. After coming back from fighting in Iraq he had major PTSD. Also, all that stress lead to an alcoholic problem. One summer in middle school Miguel's dad had came to pick him up , he was drunk as a log . I could see the embarrassment written all over Miguel's face. My mom wasn't oblivious to his horrid state , so she didn't let Miguel go with him.

Miguel's mom couldn't get off work till the next morning leading to him having to spend the night.

I think that was the night I fell for him.

The night he was given the guest room and he snuck into mine.

There seemed to be a trend in that department.

Miguel came in looking like he was holding in tears and we just sat there and talked.

I made sure he made it back to his to his room before my mom woke up .

Raising up from my sleep ridden position , Miguel continued.

" He threatened her back and then passed out. Flat on the ground. I rushed her to hurry up and actually try calling the police . My mom just clasped on top of him and started crying. I tried to get her off , but she wouldn't move. Wrapping her arms around my father till now while I'm talking to u . They are on the living room floor. "

Miguel telling me all of this I felt a sense of compassion swelling up inside of me.

Yet I knew that there were different things nagging at me at the same time.

Accidentally I mumbled allowed " You see what war did to your father but yet your still wating to turn 18?"

" What ? " he questioned. I wouldn't dare repeat it because it would just start a fight.

Talking to him right now brought back so many emotions a feeling a comfort no one else has ever made me feel .

" I wanna serve my country that is why ." I hate when people do that. Say what , when they clearly heard you.