Billion Dollar Babe [MDM Spinoff]

Chapter 9 Is This Happiness

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@JNOVAK16 If you still take the time to read this story all the way up to chapter nine, THANK YOU. MDM is running inspiration for this, and CHQ is another supporter for me. Cheers. 

LOL CHECK OUT THE MEANING OF CALLUM UP TOP OR ON THE RIGHT! Honestly, that's him.

" You're a hard man to love,

And I'm a hard woman to keep track of.

You want your way.

You make me so mad."

Chapter 9

Today felt different among the significant others.

I didn’t wake up numb, or stressed, and there was no concern in anyway. I felt completely relaxed, and happy. Because unlike the non significant other mornings that I’ve had, I didn’t wake up alone. For once in my life, I looked forward to what this day could bring me, but I still felt that burning embarrassment creep up inside of me.

I still remember what happened last night. The flashbacks were coming back. People could say that only time can tell whether or not you’d forget something. But PTSD was not a childhood nightmare, and couldn't be forgotten over time.

I used to face these alone. I used to go home from missions, get a panic attack, and find myself on the floor. The other mercenaries, given the only close people that I knew, would never take their time of day to watch me. As far as I know, they’re all facing the same thing.

Turning to my side, I found myself curled into Callum. One of his large arms were draped over me while my head fell perfectly into place in the crook of his neck. We fit like a puzzle board made specifically for each other.

I lifted a hand to play with the curls of Callum’s hair, and bit my lip as I did so. It felt scandalous, doing something I would never catch myself doing.

But I couldn’t help but think. Maybe it was the stress of being surrounded by gangs again that triggered the attack. Maybe I couldn’t find what I was looking for in The Jack’s and wishfully thought I could find it with The Kings. Is that why I felt so determined to do the job? Is that why I didn’t kill Callum right away?

Callum could help me, I think. Perhaps what I was looking for has been here the whole time.

Family.

I sighed and dropped my hand from Callum’s head. That will be impossible.

I found Callum as a mercenary, and I’ll leave London as one. I’m supposed to kill him. Already, I’ve strayed far away from my assignment, doing more harm than good. What will Scarpone say when I failed MERCHANTS? What would they do to me if they found out?

I’m a mercenary, just one. But me against an army of mercenaries? I know what they’ll tell me. They’ll tell me to finish the job. Just kill him because there will be more jobs like this. Guys like Callum are expendable.

But to me he’s a needle in a haystack. 

Callum probably thinks I’m just some poor military girl that was now adopted into his gang. He thinks I’m here to stay. In reality, he knows nothing of who I currently am. My job, my family, my past. Yeah, maybe he knows of me and the Jack’s, but that too is very vague. He doesn’t even know my last name.

And it’s because of who I am that I will never give him the chance..

See, this is a sign that we shouldn’t be together. Yeah, I fit into this puzzle, but I will always that one puzzle piece in the pile of thousands. Take a good glance at the picture, you won’t even see me when the board is completed.