teared • hyungwon

f o r t y e i g h t

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that next morning everything felt different for the both of them. feelings were clear or maybe in a middle ground. they felt alright with it and soon was more than decided to help create a safe and even loving environment to hyungwon, to help him.

the morning was fresh and the annoying rain was long forgotten. the sun shined brightly above and the air was fresh. it had a soft greenish smell that she loved, for what she opened the windows to let it in.

"breakfast was delicious." he said with a smile that reflected on his eyes.

soon had woken up early to prepare a substantial breakfast since they had lots of work ahead of the day. "i am glad you liked it."

it mainly consisted in eggs, oatmeal and fruits accompanied by tea and juice.

hyungwon seemed to be in a much lighter and better mood that morning. but he also couldn't help but glance at her with a certain lovey air. it was understandable since last time, every time he'd look at her, he'd feel her heart skipping a beat.

and for a second soon couldn't help but smile back at him. he looked cute, relaxed, as if he didn't have a care in the world and she loved the view.

but as soon as she felt her phone vibrating on her pocket, her body immediately tensed.

hyungwon took a step towards her. "is everything alright?" he asked when he noticed she was taking her hand to her pocket. she laughed nervously. "of course... i'll go get some tea. get comfortable." she said pointing at the living room as she smiled and turned around, quickly walking to the kitchen.

she checked her phone and noticed there were plenty missed calls from the clinic, from dr. lee and from kihyun.

there were also text messages and emails of kihyun asking where she was. stating that he was scared of her well being. he was almost begging her to contact him as soon as she read those.

but she felt a knot in her stomach and her fingers didn't move at all.

soon didn't want to contact him, nor dr. lee or the clinic. she wanted to stay there with hyungwon because she firmly believed she could help him get better.

"alright... so, can we talk about your father?" she asked, placing the pot with the freshly done tea. he glanced at her with widened eyes, tensed expression as he swallowed hard.

"why?" he asked with mistrust.

she shrugged. "i believe you almost never want to talk about him."

he narrowed his eyes, lips pressed together in a thin line. "that's because i don't."

soon remembered that in dr. kang's notes, she had stated that it was better to not ask about his father.

"what happened with him?" her tone was steady. even if hyungwon seemed uncomfortable, she wouldn't let it go. she needed to know what have happened between the two.

"i only want to help." she added, sitting across him, on the couches.

he moved uncomfortably on the couch and sighed. "he was a mean person."

she narrowed her eyes as she started remembering all the things one of his alters told her, time ago. she remembered they've said he wasn't a good man.

"can you be more explicit?" she asked, trying to sound as friendly as she could. she wanted hyungwon to trust her.

he looked down, as if he was ashamed of even remembering it. "he... was hard on me. always disciplining me – he looked at her with scared eyes – but not always in normal ways. or maybe... not as usual parents discipline their children."