5SOS Preferences

You Use to Self Harm

*POSSIBLY TRIGGERING, BUT READ A/N*

Ashton: "What are those?" Ashton asks you, pointing towards the faded scars carved over your wrists.

"Oh, those? They're scars from an old biking accident,"  you brush him off, returning to the book you had been reading, avoiding the topic.

"I may be stupid, Y/n, but I'm not an idiot..." Ashton pipes up again, "I know what they really are."

"Then why keep asking!" You snap, annoyed and uncomfortable with the topic.

"Because, I want to know why someone as beautiful and caring as you felt the need to inflict such pain onto yourself." He whispers, reaching over to trace your scars softly.

" Not everyone can be happy all the time, that's why Ashton," you tell him looking down, "I was in so much pain that I wanted to be in control of some of it."

"Well, I think you were a very brave and strong girl to do such a thing, and I'm proud of you for getting past it."

Calum: "You really did this all to yourself?" Calum asks you, inspecting your old burn wounds covering your legs you had just had the guts to tell him about.

"Uh, yeah I guess..." You mumble ashamed, avoiding his eyes.

"Hey, hey now," He coos, tilting your chin back up, "don't be ashamed love. Everyone has ways of pushing on, some better than others, but either way you did what you did and you can't erase that. Be proud of how far you've came not ashamed of how low you once were."

"Okay." You stutter, grateful, before wrapping him up in a hug, happier than ever to say you love him.

Michael: "I'm proud you, y'know?" Michael announces randomly to you from across the room, watching as you swept the kitchen floor.

"Yeah, why's that?" You laugh.

"You were able to beat it. The urge of your addiction. You're stronger and healthier now and it makes me happy to see that... I know it's still a bit of a road ahead of us, but I'm proud for how far you've came."

"Thank you, Michael." You smile, eyes filled with tear, not being able to help but agree with the fact that he was right.

You are and will continue to get better.

Luke: "They're like battle scars. They show how much of a warrior you actually are. You fought hard baby girl, and I'm happy you won." Luke whispers to you, fingers dancing along the white lines on your thighs, kissing your forehead.

"I'm happy I won too, Luke" You mutter, snuggling into his chest as he wraps his arms around your waist mumbling another:

"Me too," before kissing you once more and turning off the bedside lamp, happy you were alive and in his arms safe.

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*cough, cough* Okay, it's awkward Skylar time!

I'm just here to tell any of my fellow readers that I'm always here for you. I will admit I once struggled with self harm (now recovered) and can hopefully relate to any of you and be able to help possibly with any of your problems. I believe we all have a purpose in this world and sometimes some of us get blinded by the darkness in our own minds to see and realize that. Stay strong, a 5SOS member is going to need you in a wedding dress one day so you might want to stick around... just saying.

Skylar xx (also shout out to @MichelleGresser go follow and check out her stories!)