He's Dead to Me

Crazy

             Michael's pov
You've gotta help me, I'm losing my mind
Keep getting the feeling you want to leave this all behind
Thought we were going strong
I thought we were holding on
Aren't we?
No, they don't teach you this in school
Now my heart's breaking and I don't know what to do
Thought we were going strong
Thought we were holding on
Aren't we?
You and me got a whole lot of history
We could be the greatest thing that the world has ever seen
You and me got a whole lot of history
So don't let it go, we can make some more, we can live forever
All of the rumours, all of the fights
But we always find a way to make it out alive
Thought we were going strong
Thought we were holding on
Aren't we?
You and me got a whole lot of history
We could be the greatest thing that the world has ever seen
You and me got a whole lot of history
So don't let it go, we can make some more, we can live forever
Minibars, expensive cars, hotel rooms
And new tattoos, good champagne, and private planes
But we don't need anything
'Cause the truth is out
I realise that without you here like there's just a lie
This is not the end
This is not the end
We can make it you know it, you know
You and me got a whole lot of history
We could be the greatest thing that the world has ever seen
You and me got a whole lot of history
So don't let it go, we can make some more, we can live forever
You and me got a whole lot of history
We could be the greatest thing that the world has ever seen
You and me got a whole lot of history
So don't let it go, we can make some more, we can live forever
So don't let me go
So don't let me go
We can live forever
Baby don't you know
Baby don't you know
We can live forever

    I couldn't help myself by listening to one of her favorite One Direction songs called "History" because it reminds me of us every day.It's driving me insane because it's been two whole months since I last seen her.Two months without her by my side,hearing her laughter,seeing her smile,her waking up each day,and so much more.One fucking mistake I did destroyed my perfect relationship with her.2 months of restless sleep and also two months of emptiness.
    People look at me with pity while other look at me with disgusted.I don't blame them because what I did to her.That day I was gonna propose to her and she would have said yes.She loves me so much and vice versa.We could have right now been thinking about the wedding and thought about who we're gonna invite to the wedding.Most likely we would have had an argument about Trevor since he's also her best friend.
    Now that I think about it almost all of the people I know,are her best friends.She has this way with people in having the whole wide world being her friend.Now that same world is punishing me for cheating on her and I'm not gonna stop the world at all.I'm extremely sorry Claudia and I'm gonna find you to apologize for hurting you in the first place.I'll tell you that isn't childish on your part for leaving everything behind since I'm the guy who started this whole shit!
    I miss you so much baby and I'm gonna hug you so much till you complain about it.