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Stupid Letter from an anime freak

Stupid Letter from an anime freak

STUPID's POV

 I used to tease this childhood friend of mine as "DUMMY FREAK". She's already 19 years old pero addict parin sa anime. What a childish lady and a super freak otaku who loves bishounens like Usui Takumi (Kaichou wa Maid-sama), Tamahome (Fushigi Yugi), Aido Hanabusa ( Vampire Knight), Allen Walker (D'Grayman), Ryoma Echizen (Prince of Tennis), Uchiha Sasuke ( Naruto), Rin Okumura (Ao no Exorcist),and..and.......hay naku mauumagahan tayo kung i-nu-numerate ko silang lahat.

And to get back at her I throw bad compliments against those heroes of her. And I sometimes act like them para mainis siya at maipakita na kaya ko rin ginagawa nila kaya walang espesyal sa kanila. But to tell the truth, hard to admit it but I do resemble them. Pang-anime kasi mukha ko eh  (-,-)

Wala na siyang bukambibig kundi sila.....sila.....sila... And I just love teasing her lalo na pag teary-eyed na siya ang cute......cute.....cute niya. Eversince noong nasa grade school kami ay pikon na talaga siya...pati ba naman ngayon?

I don't know why but I just love teasing her. Gusto ko lahat ng atensyon niya nasa akin. And yes I won't deny the fact that I love her. Its not impossible na magkagusto ako sa kanya lalo na't simula pagkabata ay palagi na kaming magkasama. And she's very lovely I tell you.

At para nga di niya mahalata na mahal ko siya I just tease her. Dinadaan ko na lang sa asar, pag-away, at pinpaiyak ko pa siya. I know I'm a bit rude.

The reason is because I'm afraid that when she finds out about my feelings masira ang aming pagkakaibigan. I just can't bear the pain of losing her.

I'm happy when she's happy.

I'm sad when she's sad. 

She's my first love.

And years passed by and until now I never confess my feelings for her.

And until now I can't get over her.

And until now the "WHAT IF" in my mind is still there.

WHAT IF noon nagtapat ako sa kanya....

WHAT IF hindi pala siya lalayo sa akin....

WHAT IF yung mga kwento nung mga anime characters na iniidolo niya ay matulad sa kwento namin na happy ending.

WHAT IF katulad ni Usui Takumi at Mizaki ang naging kalabasan ng kwento namin....

or katulad ni Tamahome at Miaka

or ni hikari at takishima

And now the WHAT IF's in my mind ay nasagot na..

And I can't help my heart being torn into pieces...

It kills my very soul......

My life is being sucked into a blackhole...

reading her letter she gaved me after her wedding I feel my very life turned into nothingness!

Kung maibabalik ko lang ang oras...

But it's too late. Now the only thing I have is this ring with her Letter.

Xen,

I wonder why didn't you attend my wedding. I thought you're my bestfriend! I don't know what to say but I do hope before you totally forget everything about what we had, hear me out. Let me say this even just for now..

I don't know the reason why you suddenly moved away from me. Is it because you don't want to be friends with a freak like me or just simply you get tired of my weirdness? But you should have known what I'm gonna tell you.