The Start of The Numbness

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by mixedbih

by mixedbih

Jacqui's POV

I start up my car. I feel Jahseh's love for me fade away from within. My beautiful warm heart and soul is now frozen. Seconds later I hear him. His beautiful voice.

Jacqui: Oh, I loved when he would sing this to me.

I say in pain. I remember our first date, when he sang the exact same song that was playing. I Don't Wanna Do This Anymore. I sit in the car, listen to him sing for a couple seconds, then I drive home. I left something at Jahseh's house. I left my heart. I left my true love and I left my happiness and motivation to life in that bedroom the moment he said those words, "Jacqui I said we're done."

Jacqui: Oh yay, I'm home. *I say sarcastically*

I'm really numb. I feel dead inside. Does anyone even love me anymore? How am I gonna get through life now? Jahseh was my best friend, which turned into my first ever love, and now he just gave me, my first ever heartbreak. Who do I call? Do I tell anyone? Should I have someone come give me company? But all I want right now is Jahseh. Only him.

Jacqui: Ahh fuck it, I'm calling Cleo.

No, I can't. I don't want to. I go in my room, sit on my bed, turn on my speaker and play some of Jah's beautiful music. Here come the tears, here comes the hours, months and years of pain. Here comes all the depression.

*4 LOUD knocks*

I sigh and get out of bed. Mascara is dripping down my face. A little more happiness leaves my body after every step I take. I'm walking down the stairs now, still numb and crying. I open the door.

Jacqui: Stokeley?

I wipe the black tears off my face. I look at him. I'm hurt and confused. Why is he here? Is he the reason Jahseh left me. No, he can't be.

Ski : Hey Jacqui. Can I come in?