[2:15 AM]
you are so much
prettier in the dark.
[2:17 AM]
i wish you'd notice
me the way i
i notice the hollows
beneath your cheek
and the ever-present
crease between
your eyebrows.
i wish you'd notice
that when i look
at you
i am breathing with
something other
than my lungs.
my whole body
seems to shift.
[2:23 AM]
i am sorry.
i am sorry.
i am sorry.
i am sorry.
[2:24 AM]
can you hear
me cry?
i thought i saw
your fingers twitch.
[2:37 AM]
i will push the hair out of
my eyes and the snow
off my heart
and scream it,
sing it as loud
as my whispers
will possibly allow
I AM SORRY
I AM SORRY
I AM SORRY
can you hear me now?
can you?
[2:41 AM]
i wish you'd
hear me.
[2:42 AM]
there is a moth
in my dreams
and i cannot
get it out.
it's in my mind
it's in my mind
get it out
get it out
please
[2:47 AM]
wake up.
wake up.
your eyelids are
fluttering and i am scared
because
my sadness
is beginning to feel
somewhat like
home. i don't
feel comfortable
here.
[2:53 AM]
do you
ever feel
a prickly need to
rip your soul
out of your skin?
to scratch
and claw
and shatter
and bleed
until you feel
something
and you are here again
only you wish you
weren't.
is that even a question anymore?
i'm not quite sure.
[3:01 AM]
it's crazy because
i think i'd do anything to fall asleep.
you always used to say that.
"do you ever just want to die?"
"you're crazy."
"do you ever just want to pack everything and leave?"
"you're crazy."
"do you ever just feel like you'd do anything to fall asleep?"
"you're crazy."
am i?
am i really?
[3:05 AM]
you just said his name
you whispered it like
you've been saying it all your life
and then,
you did the weirdest thing.
you smiled.
[3:11 AM]
I AM SORRY
I AM SORRY
I AM SORRY
i am sorry
i am sorry
i am (tired)
i am (so tired)
[3:15 AM]
love makes you look
so pretty.
you are so pretty.
