Chapter 20
~Ella~
"We found these in a desk downstairs," Jake said, waving a piece of paper in my face.
I blinked a couple of time before the paper came into focus.
I yawned as I took the paper from his hands.
"What is this?" I asked, completely confused.
"Well," Jake said, "at first we thought it was a suicide note from the dude downstairs."
Oh yeah, the body.
"But then," Lizzie said, coming out of nowhere, "we actually read it."
I looked at the paper read it outloud.
"I know what upu did." I looked at them, "I don't get it."
"Ella think about it," Ricky said, "What kind of suicide note is that?"
I looked at it.
"It's not."
He smiled. "Exactly. He didn't commit suicide. He was killed."
I sighed. "Look guys, I don't really have time to deal with this."
"Ella," Alyssa said. "You haven't slept in three days."
"I'll sleep when Jeremy gets better," I said, washing the rag I had in my hands.
"If he gets better," I heard Jake say. Alyssa whacked him in the stomach. "I mean when he gets better," he corrected, faking a smile.
I rolled my eyes but I knew he was right. Jeremy wasn't getting any better.
He was getting worse.
Way worse.
"Aren't you supposed to be resting?" I said, looking at Ricky with a raised eyebrow.
"Aren't you suppose to be sleeping?" he mocked.
I narrowed my eyes at him and walked right past him, holding a bowl of cold water.
"We're worried about you, Ella!" I heard Alyssa yell.
"I'm not the one you should be worried about," I yelled as I went upstairs.
I opened the door to Jeremy's room quietly.
He was still sleeping. He slept a lot, unlike me. Because every time I tried to, I ended up having nightmares.
Of Jeremy dying.
I walked over to the bed and kneeled in front of him.
He looked so peaceful.
I took the rag out of the cold water, squeezed it, and pressed against his forehead. He still had a fever and his body shook as he slept. I wished I knew what was wrong. I looked at his leg. He wouldn't let me look at it. He'd said it was useless. I bit my lip.
He was sleeping and couldn't stop me. I quietly crawled over to the end of the bed.
I needed to see how bad it was.
I was about to reach for it when a voice stopped me.
"Don't," Jeremy said, his voice soft and dry.
I automatically snapped my hands back.
"I just wanted to look at it," I said defensively.
I made sure my eyes didn't meet his.
"I told you it was useless," he said as he coughed.
"You don't know that," I pointed out. "Maybe if I can see how deep it is I can-"
"You can what?" he challenged.
I looked at the ceiling. Yeah, what could I do?
"I could help," was all I could think of.
"And why do you want to help me?" he said, pulling himself up.
"Careful," I said, still not looking him in the eye.
"You still didn't answer my question," he said, crossing his arms.
He was playing me. I knew he was.
"I don't want you to die, Jeremy. Is that what you want to hear?"
"You know what I want you to say."
I didn't say anything. I just played with hands.
"Why won't you look me in the eyes when you talk to me?"
That's it.
"If you need anything I'll be downstairs."
I got up and headed for the door.
"Ella, no, wait-"
I didn't stop until I was on the other side of the door.
I could take this anymore.
The guilt was eating me alive.
I leaned against the door and stood there for a while, closing my eyes.
My fault.
All my fault.
I had repeated those words to myself every day for three days. I thought of every possible way I could have done things differently. But it didn't matter because I couldn't change what had happened.
He's gonna die and it's all my fault.
And I couldn't even look him in the eyes and say I was sorry because that would be accepting the fact he was dying.
And I wasn't going to give up yet.
I didn't know how long I was standing there. I didn't know how long I cried.
I didn't even notice Alyssa coming up the stairs.
"Ella," she said.
The minute I heard her voice I ran to her and hugged her, crying on her shoulder.
"I hate this," I said, in between sobs. I was letting everything out. Everything I had held inside was coming out. If I didn't tell someone I might explode. "I don't want him to die, Alyssa. But I don't know what to do."
"Ella, you're not alone here. I don't want him to die either. He's the only family I've got. But you know how you can help him?"
I pulled away so I could look at her through my watery eyes.
"What?"
"Take care of yourself."
Ugh. I knew where this was going.
"Ella, you need to sleep," she said, a worried look on her face.
"Sleep isn't the answer," I snapped.
"How do you know? Maybe you're not thinking right because you haven't rested."
I bit my lip. She had a point.
"And you'll wake me up in an hour?" I asked in a low voice.
I hated giving in, but I suddenly realized how tired I was. She smiled. A smile I hadn't seen since she had talking to Dominic on the helicopter.
"Promise," she said, letting go of my wrist.
I walked down the hall but stopped.
"You'll call me if something happens, right?"
She rolled her eyes.
"Yes, Ella. Now go!"
The minute I hit that pillow, I fell asleep.
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