a poem
on love
and loss
and all the time gone by.
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there was something about you, something different
I could not quite place my finger on
but you waltzed right into my life
and almost instantly my heart you won
I told you I was not worth it
I told you I was impossible to mend
but you took me by the hand
and promised to always defend
you loved me at my lowest
you adored me at my worst
you held me when my world collapsed
and my swollen heart threatened to burst
you never told me about your problem
you never were one to share
you always had such a professional poker face
whereas my heart on my sleeve I always wear
so love turned adoration turned infatuation
turned tolerance turned annoyance turned foolish hate
I left you in a whirlwind of bitter words
and now I wonder how cruel is Fate
because you needed me
you always did, it was true
but what I never admitted to myself until then
was that I needed you, too
my bruised pride ached in regret
and broken heart strings bled the blues
I harbored these awful feelings towards you
until I heard the news
I realize I failed you
I vanished, like a ghost
because I had gone and disappeared
just when you needed me most
I got there too late, found you asleep
or so I thought you were
the doctor told me what you had not
after that, it was all a blur
they wheeled you out in a covered sheet
and I swear my heart stopped with gloom
then the large swinging doors shut on you
and I screamed your name loud in the waiting room
I didn't go to your funeral
I mean, how could I
your last vision of me
were through tear-blurred eyes
I've been alright these past few years
been sort of hard in this economic recession
but if there is anything that reminds me of you
I have to take those pills for my depression
it's been seven years, three months, and two days
and I thought I would stop by before noon
but it's hard for me to be here, at your grave
I thought time healed all wounds
thinking back on all the great times we had
the ups and the downs and the in-betweens
all the signs of your secret were there
but I was too blind, it seems
you always cared about me
even when I didn't care about me
and you'd always be there for me
but I was gone when you needed me
and I'll never be able to forget you
I'll never be able to let you go
because everyday I swear I loved you
but just forgot to let it show
and if I end up dead tonight
where I'll end up is hell
because everyone knew I loved you
but it was you I had forgot to tell
so forgive me, my darling
my angel with her wings clipped
I never knew until your side of the bed ran cold
how much a poor man's world could flip
it's quiet now in the graveyard as I get up to leave
I think again of all the happy times and sigh
...but all that's left is your tombstone
...and all the time gone by.
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hi
wow that was a tad (a lot) depressing wouldn't you say
just updating + writing sad poetry at twelve thirty-one in the morning
you know, the usual
so yeah, I wanted to write any sort of poem, any kind and this is what came out of me
I like it
idk bout you but I like it
so yeah
I'm so tired rn can you tell God bless America thank you for February break amirite or amirite
okay I may or may not go to sleep now idek I don't plan when I'm on vacation
hell who am I kidding I don't plan at all, for anything ever
I'm great at parties I promise
okay I'm shutting up now
who even reads this idek
okay bye now ILYSM night <3
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