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Chapter 3

[A/N: Hello! Sorry it took so long to update but I'm on break so yay! Sorry I keep fastforwarding in time, too. SO EXITED! MORE UPDATES! WHOO! Drama in this chapterr people... be prepared :O and Dani, Eleanor, and the rest of 1D, Leprechaun, BooBear, LiLi, and Hazza get a POV! GRAB A BOX OF TISSUES AND BE PREPARED FOR THE DRAMA AND HEARTBREAK IN SKINNY LOVE STARTING....... NOW~!

2 weeks Later...

ZAYNS POV

"I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU SO MUCH!! YOU'RE JUST A BITCH WHO'S USING ME FOR MY FAME!!" I screamed at Sky, hitting her by accident and grabbing my coat and attempting to leave. We'd gotten into a really long, tiring fight, and by now, I've lost it.

"Zayn, I'm sorry!" she sniffled. "Don't go." I heard her whisper as I noticed a blue mark on her cheek.

I stared into her deep blue, watery eyes, and left. She slammed the door and luckily, she was home alone.

I sat in my car and didn't bother driving off. Instead, I breathed heavily. What the fuck have I done?! I just got her back, and now, she's probably gone again!

"Fuck, fuck, fuck, Zayn! What have you done?" I began to cry, putting my head on my steering wheel as I gripped the wheel even harder.

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I reached our mansion/home or whatever you call it and stormed up to my room. How could I do such a horrible thing to Sky? What is wrong with me?

I grabbed a boombox and hit play, not caring about what was going to come on.

(THIS IS THE ACOUSTIC VERSION, BTW!)

Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again


 I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused


 I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream.
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean.
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright.
So I'm breaking the habit,
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again




 I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream.
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean.
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So I'm breaking the habit,
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight


 I'll paint it on the walls
'Cause I'm the one at faults
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends


 I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
To show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
I’m breaking the habit
Tonight

Grabbing the fender my mum boughtme for my 17th birthday, I began to play an acoustic sound and sing whatever came to my mind.

"Can't she settle down?
Shades of blue, then beautiful, too,
Yelling, fighing, I don't know what's right;
But, I swear, I love this girl too much to fight!
And then she begins crying,
And my heart splits in two.
Oh God, Skylar, what have I done to you? 
I wanna tell her I love her,
But I can't give her that grant,
Because there are so many things I'd like to tell you...