The First Cut After a Long Break
The first thing I notice is how cold the blade feels against my skin
It’s been so long can I do this again?
I am filled with the anticipation that comes with cutting
Where shall I make the new cut?
I’m a little frightened as I begin to push down the blade
What if I cut too deep?
I start to rethink my decision
What am I doing?
My emotions take over…failure being the most prominent
Why am I such a loser?
This has to happen I need to feel the physical pain
Will this help the emptiness inside me?
Guilt tries to creep in it tries to stop me
Who cares if I cut?
No one will notice they never do
It’s just for me after all…right?
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Why Do I Cut?
Non-FictionI have turned this poem into more of a short story or journal...I honestly don't know what to call it. It will just have my honest feelings and reasons behind why I cut
