I'm Alive [CANCELED]

Chapter 13- Dreaming

Collin and I walk around the Remedy's park.

I'm wearing a green shirt with white jeans. Collin is wearing a black jacket over a white shirt with jeans. On one of his belt loops hangs a green 'R'. 

"It's beautiful here." I say.

"Yes," Collin says. "Just not as pretty as the person who's standing next to me."  

I blush a bright red.

Collin lets out a small chuckle and gently takes my hand.

As if it was a reflex, my fingers curl around his.

"Everything is perfect." I think only to myself.

"You know, how much it means for you to be here?" Collin asks me.

"Nope." I respond. "Just another run away/survivor?"

"Ha. No. Well, perhaps everyone else. Then there is you."

"There is nothing special about me..." I start, but cut off.

"Stop. You are better than everyone else here. Well, to me anyway." Collin says.

Bending down, he picks a flower out of the ground and goes to move my hair behind my ear. The stem of the flower tickles my ear when he places it there.

"You look pretty." Collin says.

I turn redder than a tomato.

"Seriously," Collin says smiling.

Slowly, he gently kisses me on my nose.

An uncontrollable smile spreads across my lips.I wrap my arms around his waist and automatically his arms wrapped around my body too.

"I like you Collin." I tell him silently.

"I'm sorry Katilynn. I just-" Collin says pulling away.

Oh my god.

What'd I do wrong? I ask myself.

"Listen, I'm sorry." I say quickly.

Usually when girls walk away from guys, they are embarrassed. Tears flowed down my face.

"NO!" Collin screams after me.

A little too tightly, he grabs my wrist.

"OW!" I scream at him.

"I'm sorry." Collin says smiling.

Why the hell is he smiling?

"Jesus Collin, I understand that you don't feel that way, but the least you could do is leave me alone. Maybe I lo-" I got cut of with Collin's lips on mine.

Shocked, I shove him away.

"What the hell?!" I scream at him.

You liked it.

I tell my mind to shut up.

"When I said I didn't like you, I meant," Collin tells me. "I love you."

My breathing catches.

"I love you Collin." I say.

It felt so good to let it out. Finally.

As if in slow motion, Collin kisses me again. It feels as if someone set my insides on fire, and it felt amazing.

Carefully, Collin slides his fingers through my hair.

I can feel him smiling as he continues to kiss me.

Steadily, I place my hands on his chest.

Everything was absolutely perfect.

No one seemed to be staring at the two of us. Everyone is carrying on doing what the have to do, while the two of us are in our own world.

Suddenly, I hear inside my head Collin's sister, Amber.

"Be careful around trouble some people like him."

What could be so wrong about Collin?

Of course, I had the answer. Absolutely nothing.

As time went on, the kiss became more then just a "kiss".

Collin was so gentle to me in a respectful way.

YOU WANT HIM.

Just that thought, snapped me into the real world.

First of all, I'd never be brave enough to tell Collin how I really felt especially not in person. Also I've never kissed anyone in my life. Just forget about getting any father than that.

This is too perfect to be true, to be real.

I pull away from Collin with great difficulty and give him a sad smile.

"I'm sorry Collin." I tell him sadly.

He gives me a questionable look.

Closing my eyes, I count to 3.

1...2...3...

When I open my eyes I am surrounded by familiar walls.

"What kind of dream was that?" I mumble to myself.