Fall For Me

EPILOGUE

Kharu’s last note:

Guuuuuuuuuuuuuys!! Maraming salamat sa lahat ng nag-participate sa kwentong ‘to! Love you! Salamat sa paghi-hintay kahit na matagalan yung ibang updates ko.

Yung important announcement po, is that, ngayong bakasyon, (April-May), hindi na muna ako makaka-gawa ng stories, kasi wala akong masyadong access sa computer and internet kapag bakasyon. Sure, makakapag-online ako paminsan-minsan, pero hindi enough yun. Mao-onhold lang din for weeks kung gagawa man ako ng stories.

I’m planning to make one or two oneshot stories pa bago ako mag-goodbye temporarily. GRABE~! Mami-miss ko talaga. Kung pwede lang na araw-araw ako nakababad dito sa bakasyon eh, kaso hindi talaga.

Yung fans na naipon ko ditto within more or less 10 months, sana hindi naman mabawasan.. Although maiintindihan ko naman kasi inactive naman talaga ako.. Kaso, nakaka-depress talaga yun. Selfish ba? Sorry talaga T__T

Sa pag-balik ko sa pasukan, college na ako. Promise, Pagbubutihin ko pa rin.

Muli, salamat po!! Godbless us!

                                                                        <3 Kharu.

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EPILOGUE

 

Love, at times, can be unfair. The more you get happy, the more you get disappointed. The more you sacrifice, the more you get hurt. Even if you did your best, it’s still not enough. Even if you deserve each other, you simply can’t be together. Until such time you have no choice but to give up.

 

That was my answer when my professor asked me to define love. They can’t blame me, it’s based on experience.


See, I’m speaking in English again.

It’s because I’m back in the States now.


I’m on my last year of study, year after this, I’d probably be Dr. Scott.

Nami-miss ko ring mag-Tagalog, that’s why pag nasa bahay ako, Tagalog kami kung mag-usap ni Mommy. Too bad Dad can’t speak with us. He often calls us “aliens”.

I miss my friends, Trish and Jen and my classmates.. And of course, him.


The one I love.. Until now.

Kahit alam kong wala na akong karapatang umasa at mahalin siya, hindi ko lang talaga mapigilan.

It’s odd. Sa ilang taon, hindi siya napalitan. Sure, I had a few boyfriends, I loved them all.. But it’s simply not enough to replace my love for Kai.


In the end, nakikipag-break din ako. Napaka-unfair sa part nila.


Ang guess what? Nothing happened between me and James. A year after I left the Philippines, he emailed me one time. Apologizing, saying that nothing happened and that he was really sorry. He knew I wasn’t Sephie, but he thought Kai was just saying it so that James would leave me.


For further confirmation, nagpa-check up kami ni Mommy. There, hindi nga ako nagalaw.


My first impulse was to go back to the Philippines, find Kai, say ‘Hey dude, I love you’ and fix everything.

Pero naisip ko, he must be angry with me. Iniwan ko siya kahit na inamin niya na na mahal niya ako. I stepped on his ego several times.

Sa tagal ng panahon, baka nga may asawa na yun. We’re already on our twenties. No hope for me. Una silang gumraduate dun kesa sa’kin.

”Attention, please!” Professor Webb says as she enters the room. “I would like to announce something important.”

“I wonder what kind of eccentric news she got now.” Says Shirley. Weird kasi lagi kapag nagk-kwento si Prof. Webb.


“It’s not eccentric now my dears. The news is that we have a visitor, from another country. He is a successful doctor, here and in his own country. He would like to share his success and hardships. So, Doctor? Please introduce yourself. And please girls, behave.”


“Ooooh, he must be handsome!!” Shirley says. I rolled my eyes.

He’s from the Philippines.. Haaaay.


A tall, fair-skinned, well-groomed guy entered the room. He looks really respectful.

Nung humarap siya, nakita ko nang maguti ang features niya.


Wait.


Oh please, stop the time. I want to look at his face longer!


The face I longed to see for how many years!

Nag-mature ang itsura niya, pero siya pa rin yung lalaking minahal ko. Yung lalaking minamahal ko.

”Hello everyone. As Ms. Webb mentioned earlier, I’m here to share my experiences with you. But that’s the minor reason. The major reason is that..” He stared at me. Then he smiled. We looked at each other longingly. Tears started to fill my eyes. So long.. It’s been so long..

“I came here to follow my heart.”

 

 

 

~Fin~

 

Finished: February 25, 2012. Exactly 9:00 PM.