Falling apart [Twilight]

Chapter 5 - Lonely

Hey  guys, sorry for the late update! The weather here has been really crap and my internet has been out for ages! It was so terrible! I didn't know what to do without it! Here's the next chapter and I really hope you enjoy it! 

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Bella POV

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I got home and did my homework, since there was nothing else to do. as usual. I walked outside and just walked around my house in circles for a while and thought about the day. I just randomly started picking up weeds and pieces of grass while I was thinking about Biology class today. That Edward guy, He kind of irritated me. The more I thought about him the more annoyed I got. Not just him, All of them. First they march up to my house and demand I follow their rules. Second Edward just intrudes on my property and third, today I bet he thought he was so great when he smiled at me, trying to win me over, Ha what a saddo. Then I realized with a sigh that all those reasons had good explanations behind them. Even the third one but I didn't really know what it was. Was he even trying to win me over? pfft. Why would he be? Even though he was a little annoying he was quite a looker. I didn't want to admit it but whatever, Why would someone that good looking want anything to do with me. Then all these thoughts about love came to my mind. I always just assumed now that I was a vampire I was going to be alone for life, Only recently had I found out the proper love a vampire can feel for another. There were 2 vampires, They were passing through when I was living in Alaska, Maybe 10, 15 years ago. Of course, me being myself I let them pass through without a word but I noticed the way they never left each other. They had been there a week and all the time the longest they had been away from each other was maybe like 5,6 minutes when one of them went to check out a place in town where they wanted to hunt that night. But whenever they were together the way they looked at each other told me that they weren't just 2 random vampires in a small coven,, protecting each others backs. There was so much more. It was proper Love, Like movie love. I was never really into that kind of soppy love, where the guy always treats the girl like a lady and the girl just stays home and cooks and cleans while her husband is at work, and at night they sit down by the fire and cuddle and talk. Because when you've lived for over 150 years on this earth you catch on pretty fast. That doesn't exist, well at least that's what I thought before I saw the vampire couple. Maybe it was different for vampires. Stronger? I don't know! I've certainly never been in love. That reminded me of this Edward guy. Did I want to fall in love with some one like him? I thought about that and decided God no! All the girls at school drooled over him and found him amazing but whatever, I knew one thing that they didn't. That Edward Cullen was a vampire. A monster, just like me. I could list out a few things off the top of my head why its not a good idea to keep contact with him,

1) He's in a very large coven. Covens are bad news

2)They all seem close which is weird but it also means if you trust one, you re gonna have to trust them all which there is no chance I am ever going to do

3) I wouldn't say he's my type. I mean sure he's a vampire, and He's really good looking. In my opinion, he just comes across as a little confident.

Then I realized how late it was and how oblivious I had been to the time of day. I walked inside and looked at the clock. damn it was 9 O'clock already. that means I had just spent like 4 hours thinking about love and Edward Cullen, eugh! what was happening to me? I came to my senses and walked upstairs and changed into sweats and walked to the bookcase. The novel "Romeo and Juliet" was sticking out and although I had read it many, many times I decided I wanted to read it again. It bored me the first few times but as I read it a couple more I noticed the writing, and phrasing and the way the book was actually written. It was kind of fun to do this with books. well it passed the time anyway. Analysing books. rating them, The authors, illustrators. I had read a few good books in my time and a few bad ones but the idea of writing my own book intrigued me. Ha just then I thought about a book of about me, and my life. The title? "My Suckish life as a freaking vampire?!?!?" A novel by Bella swan. Now that would be quite a read! I sighed and slumped down onto my bed and started reading the book. I put on my mute shield after a while because I noticed one thing about living in forks. The woodland creatures were quite noisy and it made me hungry sometimes. But whatever. I wasn't one to worry about little things so for now I decided to push all the small things to the back of my head and just relax and read in my own silent little bubble.