Was it just pretending?
Was it a ruse?
I saw you building
But I didn't ask
Now I know I should have
Why did you leave?
It is a year
But I still hope to see a letter
But each time it's crushed
I hate that I have hope
I hate that tears spill without permission
I should have forced an answer
Was it all a lie?
The more lively you were the more it was?
Appearances do lie.
I hate that I hurt at the anniversary
Not every one of those equal good fortune
Why should I be spilling tears for you? You don't deserve it.
You don't deserve my worry and most importantly my love.
If only I would have succeeded in opening your leaves
Everything you kept hidden
Would it have been a different story?
Would it have made a difference?
The ifs don't change anything in the end.
The only thing they do lead is to heartache.
It is the anniversary.
Not all of those are good.
