A Delicate Void

Blurry

Somewhere along the way

I decided that

I would learn to

Love you.

Somewhere between nine

In the morning

And three in the afternoon

I aimed to call you

Mine.

Somewhere between passing you

A note with

A box to check yes or no

I yearned for you

To answer.

We held

Hands.

We kissed

Slowly.

We danced

With

No

Music.

We loved

With

Reckless

Abandon.

Somewhere between receiving a

Yes

And reaching for you as you drove

Me home,

I decided that you weren't

So bad.

Somewhere between a long

Conversation about my

Parents

And a kiss that

Lead to my sweater landing

In the floor beside your bed,

I wished that we

Would last

Forever.

Somewhere between October

And December

When you chose to ignore me,

I chose to defriend

The signs

That would have saved

Me.

We fought

Like

Children.

We made

Love

Between the

Bed

Sheets.

We smiled

Through the

Tears.

We fell down

And

Dug our

Own

Graves.

Somewhere between

The last sad

Song

And the last phone call

I started to

Cry.

Somewhere between

Accepting that you

Were gone

I started to

Laugh.

Somewhere between

Trying to figure out

What I did wrong

Everything became

Blurry.

You walked

Away.

I stood

Waiting.

I laughed

And

I cried.

Because I

Knew

That nothing

Would

Ever

Made

Sense again.