Dreams

Chapter 1: Is It Possible?

CHAPTER 1

 Is it possible?

 Is falling in love with someone because of something so little and so trifle...

 ...maybe something that doesn't even exist...much like...

 ..a DREAM...possible?

 With Jim...apparently, it was proven very and vividly possible.

 Could you imagine that concept? Falling in love with someone over a DREAM? Could you imagine falling in love with someone in a dimension that you only venture into in your SLEEP?

Can you believe that even with my eyes closed, I still see him? That even when my body's still, immobile and can almost be compared to that of the dead...

 ...he's the only image that my mind conjures?

 He's not that muscular, nor handsome...

 But he's funny, mysterious...

I like mysterious. It challenges me. It's sort of like a puzzle or a safe. You solve or crack it to get something of large value in the inside.

 And he's my bestfriend.

 I know what you're thinking. This is the typical kind of story you usually hear. Y'know...

 "If we were a movie, you'd be the right guy and I'd be the bestfriend that you'd fall in love with."

 But it isn't. Trust me.

 We have both put each other in the friendzone...

 ...and not only that...

 Jim left me for his band...and I'm stuck with nothing but a secret...

 ...a secret that I've kept for so long because of fear of being treated differently...

 ...and his reaction that he may never give a care about it...

 After Jim left me, he had all the attention he wanted, and I was left to an invisible reputation. We were not as popular as the quarterback or the head cheerleader, but he surely has more attention than I do.

 I run the music club. And it's no surprise that he and his band are not in it.

 We made a promise together. A pinky promise, even. To me, pinky promises are unbreakable. If it is broken, everything will fall apart.

 As you've guessed it, he broke that promise and everything fell apart for me.

 He never cared. And I know he will never do. It's just how it works now...

 But now...after that dream...

...I can't explain it. It seemed so friggin' real that I felt it. I really did. That anger...that palm on my cheek and on his...and those lips...

 ...oh God...those lips... 

I've known Jim for a very long time, but absolutely NOTHING stirs up inside me. I see him and nothing. At all. Ever.

 But after that dream, I never realized how his eyes shine. I've never realized how soft his touch was...

 I've never realized how radiant his smile was...and how his lips felt so good...

 It all seemed so real...

 ...and yet...I knew it was all too good to be true after I woke up...

 You'd think, "Why would you fall in love with someone who deserted you for something so selfish?"

 Honestly?...

 I don't know either.

 I told myself that I would never make the same mistale again.

 Turns out that I made a mistake worse than the first one...

 Was it REALLY a mistake?...

 ...or was it something that would change my life forever?...

 And if...just if...if I could, maybe I could change his life as well...

 Oh, how much I've PRAYED for that...

 He needs this change, and I'm not gonna stop until I make sure he gets it. The only problem is...

 Am I even allowed to do that?

 If I am...then it's definitely NOT gonna be easy...

 I just hope it's not too late...