MY FOOLISH LOVE (Under Revision)

CHAPTER 18: James and Jamaica (Part 2)

CHAPTER 18: James and Jamaica (Part 2)

 

JAMES’ POV

 

INFIRMARY

 

I didn’t mean to eavesdrop on their conversation pero masisisi niyo ba ako? Nung bumalik ako para i-check kung okay na si Jam, narinig ko na kinekwento niya kay Marshie yung about sa amin…. And basically, mga kurtina lang ang nagdi-divide sa bawat beds dito sa infirmary kaya kahit anong gawin ko, maririnig ko talaga yung sinasabi niya.

 

“I know, sis. I know. And believe me, nagsisisi ako…. it’s been so long… akala ko makikipag-balikan sa akin si James… but he never did. I guess ayaw na talaga niya… or hindi na niya ako mahal… kasi kung mahal niya talaga ako, he’ll come back to me.”  I can hear the pain in Jam’s voice. I should be happy dahil nalaman kong pinagsisisihan niya yung ginawa niyang pakikipag-hiwalay sa akin but then, I feel quite disappointed. Tingin ba talaga ni Jam hindi ko na sya mahal? Maybe I didn’t come back to her for a reason, but it doesn’t mean that I don’t love her anymore.

“and what about you? kung mahal mo sya, why didn’t you talk to him?” thank God naisip itanong ni Marshie iyon. She has a point. Dapat ba ako lang ang lalapit para makipagbalikan? Why didn’t she do that kung nagsisisi pala sya?

“I want to… I attempted for many times pero hindi ko magawa… parang laging may pumipigil sa akin… until it’s too late. We’re friends now, I don’t want it to be more awkward than it already is kapag nakipagbalikan ako at tanggihan niya ako… also, I’m too ashamed of myself to ask.” I clenched my fist. Does she really have little faith in me? tingin niya ba kaya ko syang tanggihan? She should’ve approach me and say sorry nung una pa lang, kung ganun ang ginawa niya, siguro hindi umabot ang lahat sa ganito.

Pero bakit nga ba hindi ko ginawa yun gayong ako naman ang lalaki sa aming dalawa. Dapat ako yung sumuyo sa kanya at nagmakaawang balikan niya ako… Actually, it’s quite simple. When we broke up, I guess it was just a spur of the moment. We were both upset with each other kaya namin nasabi yung mga bagay na iyon. I was planning to beg her to come back to me exactly the day after pero naisip ko… kung ginawa ko yun, mag-aaway lang kami ulit ni Jam. Hindi matatapos yung pag-aaway namin dahil napaka-selosa niya. So I decided to teach her a lesson. I was waiting for her to realize and think of it over again. I was patiently waiting for her hanggang maintindihan niya. Besides, gusto kong kapag naging kami ulit, buo na ang tiwala niya sa akin…. But that didn’t happen. Jam never talked to me again after the break up. She kept on avoiding me. Kapag hindi naman, she won’t even talk or look at me.

I got mad at her for doing that. Why did she act like she doesn’t know me at all? And now I know the answer. She was too ashamed of herself. She was so embarrassed. That’s better because I really thought na baka ayaw na niya sa akin kaya hindi niya ako kinakausap. I’m relieved na nahihiya lang pala sya, and until now, mahal niya pa rin ako. I know it will sound so gay but I feel like throwing a party just because I confirmed that Jam’s still in love with me.

 

“Oy James, anong ginagawa mo dyan? Si Jam? Nandyan ba sya?” lumingon ako at nakita ko sa likod ko ang buong tropa. Bago ko pa man sila mapigilan, bigla na lang sumugod si Jerome kasama si Ghabbie papasok ng kurtina. Laging nangunguna- nguna ang dalawang yun sa mga ganitong bagay. *face palm*

 

“SUUUUUUUUUUURPRISE!!!!!~” Ghabz shouted then pinaputok nila yung mga Party Poppers na dala nila, nagsabugan ang mga confetti sa kama ni Jamaica na halata mong gulat pero masaya. So, this is what they do kaya natagalan silang pumunta dito. (=___=)

 

“When James told us na na-injured ka daw, naisipan agad ni Ghabz na gawin ‘toh para naman daw i-lift ang spirit mo at hindi ka malungkot. Believe me, sa mga gantong bagay sya magaling.” Sabi ni Andy, sounding so dismissed.

Si Ghabz naman, walang tigil sa pagpapa-party pop habang may sinisigaw or kinakanta, I’m not sure. Mukhang nasa party mood talaga si Ghabz, sinamahan pa ni Rome at Trent. And later, sumama na rin si Marshie. Whoa, this is quite a kind of friends that we have here. (__ __)””

“Waaa~ Ghabbie, is that true? Oh my, I’m so touched, guys!! Siguro pinadala niyo si Marshie dito to keep me occupied habang nag-pe-prepare kayo, noh?” sabi ni Jamaica, she’s almost teary-eyes. Kami namang lahat, nakatayo at nakatingin lang sa kanya. Buti na lang pinapunta nila si Marshie, kung hindi, hindi ko malalaman ang lahat ng ‘toh. I’m thankful. XD

 

“Oh, yep!! Haha. But wait, Jam, bilis Gabby beybe, bring out the cake~!!” excited na excited na sabi ni Ghabz tapos lumapit naman ang walang magawa kundi sumunod na si Gabby, kay Jam. May hawak na cake si Gabby.

 

“Get well soon, Jam! Cheer up, girl! We love youuuuu~” sigaw nila at inutusang i-blow ni Jam yung candle. Sa sinabi kong sigaw nila, I meant Ghabbie, Marshie, Trent at Rome. Kami nina Gab, Calvin at Andy ay tahimik lang pero kahit papaano naman ay nakangiti sa isang mini party na in-organize ni Ghabz.

Jeez, is this it? parang kasasabi ko lang na gusto ko ng party dahil sa good news na natanggap ko, meron na agad. Epic talaga si Ghabz, oh.

 

“Waaaaa! Guys! I’m not sure what to say. Basta masaya lang talaga ako na nandito kayong lahat, kahit alam kong ang iba sa inyo ay napilitan lang, basta thank you pa rin! T^T” at bago pa matuluyan sa pagda-drama, nilabas na ni Trent ang iba pang pagkain at nilantakan na namin yung cake.

I looked at Jam’s happy face. I promise I will make it up to her. She realized her fault and I guess she already learned her lesson. At the same time, I also learned my lesson-- that is to never let her go again. I think there’s no need for me to torture myself longer, I need to get my girl back real soon. ;)