Why It Ends

Chapter 3 - Melancholy

So we decided to start anew, wishing that this will be a great way to fill up every little spaces that has gotten between us. We started dating again, we started going to our favorite places, we started making new memories but every time we do such, you never fail to mention Kaye. 

I admit I'm jealous, but everytime my mood changes, yours will follow and that will be the start of our world war scenario, that's why these past few days I never told you that I'm irritated with her name, that I'm irritated with you because I dont want you to be mad at me, I dont want to spoil our day with my little immaturity. 

And everytime we will be going out with her all you do is ask her if she's doing well, if her baby is fine, and if they're eating right. Then a sudden realization came into my mind, if we're together all you talk about is Kaye and if three of us are out together all you ever talk about is her baby but when will be the time that you will proudly speak about me again, when?

People around us are starting to think that I'm such an idiot for not noticing that you look good together, didn't they know that, that was all I ever think about at night? Didn't they know how paranoid I am whenever you text me goodnight because I thought that maybe you're talking to her, that's why you already ended our conversation?

   

And now I think that everything I did to you before are the things that your doing to me right now, we barely talk because you always said you're busy with your stuff, you never heard me complain about those stuff even though I personally don't know what those stuffs are. And now you never schedule our 'date' unlike before, I will always be the one who would schedule it for you, that sometimes I felt that you just really don't want to be with me

Is there something wrong? I'm afraid to ask you that, because I'm not prepared for your answers and maybe that's one of the reason why it ends 

I'm happy that we're back together but I feel like we're just back because I wanted to, not because we both wanted to. Its happening again, your slowly drifting away, its like your slowly becoming a stranger, but with everything that I'm feeling I'm not saying a single word about it, I'm not complaining anything because maybe I haven't learned my lessons just yet. With everything that had happened between us before maybe I still don't understand a single thing about it, maybe I'm not yet mature enough about this relationship and maybe that's one of the reason why it ends 

But is it wrong to be selfish about your time? Is it wrong to be a little kid that only wants your compassion? Because personally I don't think that there is something wrong with that specially now that I know you're mine. But it looks like you're the one that doesn't know we're together again and maybe that's one of the reason why you end it 

Everything has its limit, even I, have my own limits thats why when I saw you together I burst into madness that even I don't know have the capability of