Wake Me Up Inside (part 2 of What Little Girls Are Made Of)

My World

My world

“It hurts so bad please do something” I screamed at the nurses. “Give me the strongest drugs you have!” I screamed as the pain got closer.

“Calm down Renee’ It’s almost time” the nurse said to me.

“Don’t you dare tell me to calm down! You don’t know what it’s like!” I said in an evil demonic voice. The nurse just laughed at me and walked to the foot of the bed.

“Let me check you” she said as she placed her hand between my legs. “You’re fully dilated it’s time to push.” She then pushed the call button on my bed. “Send the doctor in she is ready to push.” She called into the speaker.

“Yes ma’am right away” the voice on the other side responded.

“Please Kari give me some drugs I will do anything!” I begged her.

“Now you sound like a druggy. Sorry but you said you didn’t want anything, you said you wanted to remember everything. I’m just following your wishes”

“Fuck what I said before, if you don’t give me something now I will have you fired!” I threaten her.

“Oh you love me too much to do that.” She was right I did love her, she became my best friend. I requested her to be my nurse for this moment. I needed her since I was doing this alone. But at this moment I hated her.

“Shut up!” I said then started to scream in pain. Kari then took the sheet off of my legs and pulled me down to the edge of the bed. At that moment the doctor came in the room followed by another nurse.

“How far is she?” the doctor asked.

“She’s ready to push” Kari answered him.

“No I’m not, I’m not ready for this!” I yelled to them but they weren’t listing to me.

“I’ve got it from here, go to her, calm her.” the other nurse told Kari. I didn’t know that nurse she only worked in the labor and delivery unit of the hospital.

“Okay baby all you have to do is push.” Kari told me calmly

“All I have to do is push? Why didn’t I think of that before?” I said in a bitch tone.

“Come on Renee’ you can do this.” Kari then started to breathe through my pushes to get me to follow her lead. Soon I did what she was doing. Pushing and breathing, pushing and breathing. After what felt like days but were only hours I heard a tiny screaming voice.

“It’s a boy” the doctor declared as he gently laid the baby on my belly. The nurse then started to wrap the baby in a blanket but before she could wrap him all the way the doctor handed Kari a pair of surgical scissors and asked if she wanted to cut the cord. Kari looked at me for permission and I nodded yes to her. Tears started to well up in her eyes at the honor of cutting the cord.

The nurse then wrapped the baby completely up and handed him to Kari. Kari let go of a couple tears and walked up toward the head of the bed where I now laid.

“He’s perfect” she declared as she handed him off to me. From the moment I looked into his big blue eyes I knew he was my world, my life. “What are you naming him?” she asked as she cuddled up to us.

“Ian Harper Morgan” I said. Looking at this perfect baby I couldn’t help but notice he looked just like his daddy. There was no other name that came to me other than Harper when I looked at him. He was all ‘dad’ and realizing that, I couldn’t help but cry over how much I missed him.

“I know baby, but you did good” Kari said knowing I was missing him.

“’We’ did good.” I corrected her. She then put her arm around both me and the baby.