Love It Forever (sequel to Little Direction COMPLETE)

She's too cute

I held the black box full of letters in my hands as I walked back to the couch in my room

I sit down and stare at it

I promised him i would read one....just one

I opened the very full box and took out an envelope

It said 'Perrie' in fancy writing and I slowly opened it

"Perrie" Zayn says walking into the room

I quickly hide the letter under my led

I look at him standing in the door frame

"I was just going to go help jade, because she's going to the rehab place today" he says

"Ok, um ill see you at their house soon" I say

He says bye and walks out the door

I took out the letter once again as my phone started ringing in my pocket

I answered it without seeing the ID

"Hello" I sigh

"Hey pez, I just wanted to see if you wanted to go out for lunch later" Jesy asks me

"Um, can we make it dinner" I ask

"Yeah sure...are you ok" she asks

After a long awkward silence

"Yeah I'm find, just a bit stressed at the moment" I say

"Oh, we'll I just need to ask you a question then ill get out of your hair" she says

"Yeah ok-" I was cut off by Rosie screaming

"Ok, so when is jade going into rehabilitation because I want to see her before she goes" she asks

I started to panic for no reason

"Um, I don't know I'm going over soon, ok sorry gotta go bye" I say before hanging up

I run into Rosie's nursery and pick her up and hold her tight

"It's alright baba shhhhh" I hum swaying side to side

As I was holding her I smelt a terrible smell

"Aw baba you need a change" I laugh looking at her tear filled blue eyes

I kiss her forehead and lye her down on the changing table

I change her diaper and hold her as I walk back into my room

I sit on the couch and place her on my lap as she plays with my necklace

I sigh and finally open the letter and begin to read

'Perrie,

I know you will probably never read this but if you do I hope you remember it....

Look, I'm so sorry for everything I put you through, I have never attempted suicide, but it doesn't mean I havn't considered it

I am scarred for life about what I did to you and your mother and brother

I hate myself more and more every day, that I treated you so badly, you still can't forgive me,

I know you still won't forgive me, but I need you to know I support you in everything you do, I hope one day you will have children and have a happy and successful life,

You are a talented and beautiful girl, and never give up on life, I nearly did so many times and I still think I should, but you have done nothing to think that,