Loving You... My Cold-Hearted Guy (COMPLETED)

25. You pushed me to be like this

"Good evening everyone, it's my pleasure to see you all again after almost a year. More importantly,I would like to take this opportunity to express our gratitude to you for being part of the success of our business over the years. Maraming salamat sa inyo and for the unconditional support. Karl, I told you we would make it. We are part of each other's success. Cheers to our friendship and cheers to all of you! We hope everyone enjoyed the evening and entertainment and we look forward to seeing you soon."

I am looking at him from afar but he doesn't seem to notice my existence. While he's rendering his speech I cannot help it but admire him more, I am proud for whatever he has become today. 

"One more thing, I am announcing that I'll be a husband and a father soon. If you remember Misty two years ago from our supposedly wedding, I am glad to announce na finally matutuloy na to. I'll keep you posted about the wedding. Thank you."

But wait, did he just say that he's going to get married?  I was about to clap when my mind absorbed that last line.

Nate is going to be a father now and finally ikakasal na sila. I don't know what to react pero pipiliin kong maging masaya ko para sayo Nate. Kahit alam kong sa puso ko gugustuhin kong ako sana ang nasa lagay ni Misty ngayon.

Then in just a snap while in the midst of thinking, he looked at me. His eyes are so cold just like the first time we've met. Did I turn you like that? Did I make your heart cold again?

Tumitig din ako sa kanya, but then they kissed. It was a heart-wrenching scene for me. Hindi ko alam kung paano ako nakalabas sa hotel nila. I just immediately reached for the carpark.

"Monique, are you okay?"

"Oh Kuya Karl ikaw pala. I missed you."

"You have a lot of explaining to do, why you suddenly left and all."

"Kuya pwede bukas na lang. Sumakit kasi yung ulo ko eh, I think I have to go home. Jet lag pa din eh."

"Okay. But is it okay to ask?"

"Sure. Ano yun?"

"Alam ko nagulat ka sa naging announcement ni Nate, kahit ako hindi ko alam na sila na ulit. I thought they're just close friends."

"Ano ka ba kuya, okay lang no. Diba I was the one who broke up with him.. Masaya ko para sa kanya. That he has finally moved on and getting married. Yun kaya yung dinadasal ko."

"But are you sure? totoo bang masaya ka para sa kanya?"

"Oo naman. Sige kuya I have to go. I'll contact you tomorrow."

Nagmadali akong sumakay sa kotse at nagpahatid sa condo ko. Ang hirap magsinungaling lalo na kung alam mo sa sarili mo ang totoong nararamdaman mo. My heart is crying in pain.

Pero yun naman ang dapat diba? Na maging masaya ko para sa kanya. Finally God answered my prayers. Hindi ko na kailangang isipin kung paano si Nate pag nawala na talaga ako.

Pero sayang, hindi ko sya nagawang lapitan. Ang hirap pala. Akala ko makakalapit at makakahingi na ko ng tawad sa kanya ngayon, pero naduwag ako.

Dahil alam ko na anytime tatraydurin ako ng mga luha ko. Masaya ako na makita sya and at the same time ang sakit din pala.

Deep inside I know my heart would say nothing but "I missed you so much Nate. I am very sorry.  I went through hell without you.. Sana hindi natin kailanging danasin to, sana ako pa rin ang happiness mo. Sana tayo ang ikakasal, sana tayo ang magkakaanak. Sana ako, sana ako pa rin. "