A Thousand Matches

chapter 30

"Alyssa is someone who goes after what she wants, and Dennise Lazaro was no exception. A typical Valdez, who does everything and goes at what she wants, without thinking twice about it and without care about what other people thinks or say. though one thing ive learned through Alyssa's love for Dennise is the importance of perseverance, that in the face of true love you don't just give up - even if the object or the person of your affection is begging you to. and of course, the importance of forgiveness. She gave everyone who hurt her intentionally and unintentionally the gift of second chance. And in kind I've watched them become someone actually worthy of that gift. And one day I hope I'll be lucky enough to find someone who'll do the same for me. Alyssa, I love you. I miss you already and ill see you soon."

a sobbing Ailysse Nacachi left the podium and kissed Alyssa's coffin.

A, The last person who delivered her Eulogy for Alyssa made everyone cry a bucket of tears. Lalo na sakin na ive felt every word A said. Ramdam na ramdam ko kung gaano ako minahal ni Alyssa, its as if everything flashed back in my mind. at gustong gusto kong saktan ang sarili ko sa mga nasayang na panahon na sana ay naiparamdam ko sakanya kung gaano ko din siya kamahal. Only now. Its too late. Its too damn late. I am way too late.

wala na siya, dahil iniwan na niya ako.

Everyone gathered up around her, and I see Alyssa, peacefully, forever sleeping inside her coffin.

Her family, my family, her friends, my friends, everyone who adored her, came to her funeral. The place is packed. Andami daming nagmamahal sakanya.

They closed her coffin. And ng ibaba na nila sa ilalim ng lupa, I couldn't help myself but stop them.

Tumakbo ako at muling binuksan ang coffin ni Alyssa and hug her. niyakap ko ang wala ng buhay na katawan niya habang umiiyak.

"Ly, please, gumising ka! Bumangon kana! Wag mo akong iwan! Hindi ko kaya! Hindi ko kaya!!"

Naramdam kong may lumapit sakin at pilit na hinihiwalay kay Aly. I can hear everyone pero wala akong maintindihin.

And then everything went black......

Bigla akong nagising, puro puti lang ang nakikita ko. and I looked around, and found myself lying in our bed.

Our bed.

Sa bahay namin ni Alyssa.

Napahawak ako sa pisngi ko dahil absang basa ito ng luha ko.

Umiiyak ako habang tulog.

Ramdam ko pa din yung sakit sa puso ko.

Kinapa ko ang side ng kama. Wala. Walang tao. wala akong katabi.

So its real? Totoong wala na si Aly? Totoong iniwan na niya ako? na hindi lang itong masamang bangungot?

I couldn't help but curl myself like a fetus and cry. Kasi sobrang sakit. Sobra akong nasasaktan.

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"Den! Den! wake up! Wake up!"

That voice! Her voice!

Unti unti kong binuksan ang mata ko at tumambad ang maamo at nag aalalang mukha ni Alyssa.

"Den, are you okay? bakit ka umiiyak?" parang naiiyak din na tanong niya sakin, worried really is written all over her face.

I held my hand out to touch her face. baka mamaya, hindi nanaman siya totoo. Nag hahallucinate nanaman ako.