Confused

chapter 6

POV Johnny
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This is absolutely is my lucky day , not that they just announced me that i'm going to this huge medical conference that i wanted to attend so much but also i just bumped into my beautiful crush, she was mumbling she is sorry means she doesn't know whom yet, as she looks at me in the eyes, as she always do , and god i love the way she looks at me, everytime she seem mesmerized by them,  like if she sees them for the 1st time , she smiles at me , i hit her in the back of her head not so hard tough and say:
Me: could you be more blind ?!you could have hurted yourself !
So what i sound like a worried dad , i just can't support the idea of seeing her hurt !!! I guess it's quite obvious that i like her, to every one in this hospital , yes everyone but her !!! She is smart in everything until it comes to the matter of my feelings, after looking at me for forever she finally spoke
Sarah : you couldn't look in front of u !!!! Idiot .
I was the 1st in my class in med school , i'm one of the high class doctors in this hospital that never misses a diagnostic, i can solve extreme Sudoku in 2 minutes yet she calls me an idiot >.< !!!!
Me : said the smartest girl ever !! What were u looking at any way?!
Sarah : oh you already know i am , exam schedule :/
She said with a fake sad smile
I smile at her and smirk
Me : being a smart girl heum you shouldn't feel bad about it
She gives me a glare and asks
Sarah : johnny don't you have a i don't know WORK to do
I laugh and tell her in a happy tone
Me : it's my break , being the lazy person you are , you probably didn't have lunch yet , so let's go have something to eat shall we?!
She seems thinking a bit so i added
Me : we'll go to that place where they make delicious pizza and chocolate dessert
And just like magic she says yes , i ask her to wait for me so i can go take a quick shower and change into casual close ....
After 15 minutes we are in the little restaurant, we already ordered and as everytime we walk in the owner gives me a smile , i ate here a lot since i live alone, i don't cook much , plus it's one of the chances where i get to hang with her , we've been friends 5 months now since that night guard. our friendship might have started with a fight , it Definitely statrted with a fight , but we grew to like each other and eventually stop fighting like cats and dogs , we still have our momens though .
We ate while we discuss her project she seems really annoyed by it. I remember my own project and i can easily feel her pain, i offer my help as always , when it comes to her i m always available like     when i just came to keep her company in her night guard since there wasn't so much work , and I'm an expert in everything !!!! at least she thinks so cause i once  spent two days digging into my old books to help her in her exam since it wasn't my major,  oh dear Sarah things i do for you and you don't even know!! , she hits my shoulder with her left hand while holding her glass of coke in the other , i gave her a what-the-heck look when she says
Sarah: what were you thinking about so much for the last 5 minutes ?!!
Me : nothing just usual work and stuff
Sarah : like if you can fool me !! That look you had surely isn't -I-am-thinking-about-work-look
 i wanted to say If only you know what s on my mind  , and matter of fact i do fool you but anyway !
Me: shut up and finish your food monster
She gives me an angry look , and she looked so cute i peek her noise and i know she hates it
Sarah : do it again Foster and i'll kill you in your sleep !!!!
Wow aggressive yet she still looks cute as hell , i glance at my watch and growl, duty time i don't like to keep my patients waiting even if i d love staying here extra minutes, as always Sarah would make a huge argue about me not paying for her but i just don't like girls paying when they are with me , so except the times where she pretended to go to the ladies room and sneaked to pay i never let her do so . I gave her big bear good bye hug and kiss on cheeks since i won't be able to see her  i m leaving tomorrow night while she will be at her friends wedding ,I went back to hospital both happy and sad  for the time we had together and the fact that i wanted to take her out in a date and confess my feelings now that she is no longer with that asshole she was dating, that's the least i can say about him after some of the things she told me .
after my work i ride in my car and go home i pass by an Italian restaurant to take some pasta for dinner , i ate , showered and lay down in my bed , as i think about Sarah and my feelings her words  kept repeating in my head
"Once someone is friendzoned in my life he can never leave that zone"