𝐌𝐲 𝐁𝐨𝐲 [ RusAme ]

13 . Nightmares

Should I write a Oneshots book ?
I'm getting bored :<

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Germany POV

It was early in the morning , today was a new day like everyday . The new was terrible , i couldn't believe Soviet Onion just died . Good thing , my father ( Third Reich ) will take care of his children since they were normally lovers but they divorced some times ago , so here I was . We moved in their house because it was big and some bedrooms were left by Russia's step siblings . Time went by while I was drinking my coffee , waiting for someone to chat with . Today we had a day off , so nothing to do beside sleeping or working . Someone walked downstairs and joined me in the kitchen , it was out little depressed Russian , it became rare to see him outside of his bedroom , after the incident he rarely got out of his room . He took a glass of water and drank slowly .

"So . . . How life's going ? " I asked .

"G-good , I guess . . ." Russia answered , unsure .

"You know you can't hide forever in your room . " I said .

"Yeah yeah , whatever . " He groaned in annoyance .

"Okay , who hurt you this time ? " I asked as he took a sip of his drink and finished it before answering .

"Ukraine , he's crushing as fuck on Poland . " He said as he took an another glass of water .

"My ex-boyfriend ? " I replied confused .

"Yeah . . . " He replied back .

"What's the problem beside he's my ex boyfriend . " I asked .

"I'm worry about him getting hurt like me . ." He said with a sad look .

"Well , I'll tell you the true about Poland . If we broke up it's not because someone was toxic or something like that , it was because we didn't have any feelings for each other ." I replied .

"I-i know bu-but . . *Sigh* You know what let it go . . ." He said as he left with his glass .

America was really his 'everything' since they broke up , his mental health got worse than I thought .

Russia POV

I walked back to my bedroom , put down the glass on my desk , went to my bed and fall in letting out a 'oof' . I moved to a comfortable position facing the wall , I took my phone right next to me and started to scroll as I watched random things on my social media . It was pretty boring but I feel like I didn't wanna move , I just slept trying to disparate and never coming back . The new became popular , Philippines was forced and became America's boyfriend . I hated him so much but at the same time I still loved him , I couldn't explain . He broke me and left me to please someone else , it will be the last time I fell in love with someone , I promised . While overthinking my phone rang , Mexico was calling me as I saw that I noticed I was crying , I swiped my tears away and answered .

'I wonder what he wants , early his morning . .'

"Hello ? . . "

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"Hi vodka , are you okay ? " Mexico asked .

"Y-yeah , what about you , Tacobell ? " I replied sniffing .

"I'm doing great ! Anyway , I wanted to ask if you want to hang out with Canada , Germany , Italy and I . " Mexico asked .

"Sorry , I have homeworks . Maybe next time ? " I said .

"Oh . . It's fine , next time then . Take care , vodka ! "

"You too , bye . " I said and I hang up the call .

These days I've been studying and not getting enough sleep just because of some kind of nightmare . I sometimes had some panic attack from those nightmares , fortunately my father , Reich was always here to comfort me while my episodes . He was very nice with us beside he's a Tsundere . I started with my homeworks then I cleaned my bedroom , it was a complete mess because I hadn't put much about it . Clothes were everywhere , my closet was also a big mess , some broken glasses of vodka and more . The only thing cleaned was my bed and my desk because I passed most of my time on it . Time went by and I finished to clean my room and do my homeworks . I jumped on my bed and grabbed my phone , I scrolled some posts until 10 am . My eyes started to be heavy , I didn't want to sleep , I didn't want these nightmares . . . Minutes passed away , I was trying to keep my eyes open but I failed and fell asleep .

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I opened my eyes , nothing , there was only me and the darkness of the void . I didn't like this . . . Then I heard someone screaming , the sound started to be more and more loud as it hurt my ears . I tried to move but something held me , I didn't know what it is but something took me and started to suffocate me . As I tried to get rid of this , I saw my father ( Soviet Onion ) walking far away from me , I tried to call him but something was covering my voice shut . I tried to make a sound a multiple times but nothing came out . But more I tried more my father started disparate . Then I panicked and I screamed and this time a sound came out .

"FATHER ! PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME HERE ! " I screamed as tears fell on my face .

He turned to me and just look at me as he disparate without word , just smiling at me .

"I love you , Россия. . . I'm sorry I wasn't a good father . . " I tried to reply but again I couldn't make sound , my mouth started bleeding my body started burning .

I coughed harder and I couldn't breath . . I looked up to my father he was lying on the floor dead . Tears dropped down my face I started crying , but finally I got free from the grabs and started running to my father but more I got closer more I went far away form him . I accidentally fell on the ground trying to get up , the colors changed and now it was white I looked around trying to understand . Why , why is death why America abandoned me for someone else . am I not enough ? I thought to myself .

"Russia ? . . "

I turned my head to the familiar voice .

"U-USA ? ! "

"I'm sorry Russia , I couldn't be the one . " He calmy said .

"B-but─" I did a step closer and he fell into the abyss .

"USA ! " I yelled crying .

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He was gone .

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I woke up terrified , Reich was next to me, he was hugging me tightly and rubbing my back , trying to calm me . I tried to breath as well .

"Shhh . . . Calm down . I'm here , no one can hurt you . " He said .

"I-i . . I'm s-sorry . . . " I replied .

"It's fine . Please breathe , Liebling . "

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"Th-thank yo-you . . . F-father . " I quietly said hugging him tightly .

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I'm more dumb that I thought . .
What's a country ?

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