Waking up from my alarm, I sighed sitting up on my bed,from laying down, as I sat der I started dozing off.
FLASHBACK:
"Mom ... ma pls" " pls I'm sorry I tried... I tried to tell you" young paige whispered crying and sniffing, "b-baby it's okay ... I'm s-s-sorry I was never there ,I'm sorry if you f-felt like I didn't love y-you ma h-hear-t, i always loved you nothing could e-ever change t-that" ma said gasping and choking on air , "MOMMY WHY DIDN'T YOU RUN TOLD YOU TA RUN... i told you to run.. I love you u can't die .. not yet" young paige yelled crying, whispering the last parts.
" Ik ... n I'm sorry m-ma hear-t b-but make momma p-p-proud, okay I l-love y-you"she said lowly as I nodded slowly" h-here" she said as she grabbed my hand and put something in it, soon her eyes started to close slowly , I hurried and got her phone calling 911. *RING* *RING* *RING*
My flash backs and trouble sleeping started a couple weeks after my mom passed, my dad had got me a therapist and a doctor diagnosed me with PTSD, i had trouble sleeping,eating and i couldn't stop thinking about it, and how it all went down, even my dad couldn't help the only thing that made me feel somewhat better was my siblings other than that it's no hope for me.
I had lied to my dad and told him it stopped along time ago, I lied because he would keep treating me differently, he would send me to another therapist n another n another, til eventually I gave up, and started lying i got tired of them saying the same thing over and over, like there is something wrong with me, like this isn't normal for a child who watched her mother die and who can't stop thinking about it, running back n forth in my mind,i thought i was going crazy, like now I am thinking this all but i cant stop thinking until someone helps me.
*KNOCK* *KNOCK* *KNOCK*
I looked up fast after being freed from the flashback and my thoughts" es hora de que te levantes para ir a la escuela voy a trabajar algo pasó en el edificio"dad said, "Aii" I replied as he walked out, I jus sat on my bed .
It's all your fault you could've saved ha
Shhhh, stop reminding her
If only you would've gotten her to leave earlier or said something differently, she would've still been with us.
"Shut up" I mumbled shaking my head.
It's okay it's not our fault na gt school
I got up and quickly wiped my face grabbing my clothes n heading to my bath room.
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