Secretly Married: MISERY

Chapter 1

I tried to hide my annoyed expression. I couldn't take this anymore. "Ready?" He asked me whilst preparing his camera. I didn't bothered to respond for I am no longer in my mood. "Smile, Isa." He told me with his Italian accent. His deep blue eyes glared at me. How can I smile if they didn't followed my conditions? There are plenty of people in the studio, I am not comfortable. I never was.

He asked for a break because he couldn't get a perfect photo for the Playboy magazine. Well, it's not my problem it is his for he is a picky man. He can grabbed any photos that he captured, but allow me to quote him "I want this to be perfect!" Using his Italian accent.

Perfect mo, mukha mo. I said through my mind. While the make-up artist is retouching me an idea popped into my mind.

"Please make the lipstick bloody red." I requested to the make up artist. She was skeptical but in the end she had no choice. For I am Isabelle. The Isabelle every man wished for. "Time to make this more interesting" I said through my mind and flashed a smile to my manager, Lae.

I used all of the poses I learned for almost 6 years in the industry. I tried not to laugh my ass out for I saw most of the men in the studio were all sweats. I opened my legs widely and sat in the couch though I am not really comfortable but I don't have a choice this is a Playboy magazine after all. Huh. I know he can't concentrate anymore. Boys will always be boys. "O-okay. Next pose" He said and a victory smile formed.

I unclasped my brassiere and I heard gasps from them. I covered my breast using my two hands and give them a seducing smile. Now, let's try how you can all cease your self from salvating. I heard some of them cussed and iba naman ay lumabas. "I need a break." Huh. Finally. He couldn't take it anymore. "But why? Kaka-break lang kaya..." I said and bite my lips. "Isa! Stop it!" I heard Lae shouted, that made me laugh so freaking hard. Hindi ko alam kung kailan ang huling tawa ko na ganito. This is the first, after how many years...

"I think the shots are wonderful..." The photographer said while looking at the photos in his camera and I nodded. Everyone in the studio were ogling with mouth wide open. "Wow. That's the first time you laugh like that, Isa." Lae said that snapped me. Ibinalik ko ang 'emotionless' face ko ngunit I can't cease myself not to myself. That was hilarious!

"I can't believe you, Isa!" Pahayag ng manager ko while I'm giving her a questioning look. Wala naman akong ginawa ah. Ngunit hindi ko na lang siya pinaninsin. Kinain ko ang baon kong chocolates while Lae ay busy sa pagsesermon, sa akin. Buti na lang at sound proof ang van ko na ito kaya walang makakarinig kay Lae. This is the problem of having your bestfriend as your manager. "Ugh. I need some rest, L..." I sighed ngunit hindi pa din mawala sa mukha ko ang matagumpay na ngiti from what happened kanina. "You have 3 hours free. Madaling natapos ang shoot mo so you can do whatever you want. But don't get caught by some crazy paparazzi okay?" She said. I asked her na ihatid ako sa condominium at kinuha ko susi ng sasakyan ko. I need to unwind.

I immediately went to my unit at kinuha ko ang susi ng sasakyan ko. "Saan ka pupunta?" Text sa akin ni Lae. Hindi ko na siya nireplyan. I turned my phone kasi I don't want to be disturbed. Bihira lang mangyari na may 3 hours na vacant ko...Kaya I need to do important things at isa na riyan ang pagbisita sa cemetery dito.

"Hi baby" I greeted. Allison Isabelle Bernal. The child I never had. Kahit hindi ko pa alam ang gender niya I know magiging babae siya, mother's instinct. A tear escape from my eye. Kahit ilang taon na ang nakaraan kapag dumadalaw ako dito hindi ko maiwasan ang hindi maiyak. Kahit alam ko sa sarili ko na walang laman ang puntod na ito ay ramdam ko that she's here, my child's here. Mapait na tinignan ko ang kalangitan. If my child didn't die hindi ako magiging ganito ka miserable. Kung buhay lang sana ang anak ko, she's 8 years old now. Siguro masaya ako. Masaya kami...

"I'm sorry, baby. If mommy wasn't able to visit you ha? Medyo hectic ang schedule ni Mommy eh. But despite mommy's hectic schedule lagi kang naalala ni mommy baby. Kasi love na love kita...

...baby maganda ba diyan sa heaven? I want to see heaven too pero hindi pa pwede eh. I need to avenge those who kill you baby. I will never be happy hangga't alam kong they are enjoying their lives ngunit ako ay nagdadalamhati pa din. Baby mommy loves you okay? Remember that always."

I'm late. Hindi ko namalayan na nakatulog pala ako sa loob ng sasakyan after talking to my daughter. I opened my cellphone at 20 unread messages mula kay Lae ang nakita ko. I drove faster as I could papunta sa party ng isa sa mga product na ineendorse ko, ngunit as part of the contract I need to go kahit na naiinis ako sa mga party party na 'yan. Ganito din kaya ang ginagawa niya kapag hindi siya nakakauwi ng maaga? Ganito din kaya siya kabusy na wala na siyang time sa akin? I smiled bitterly. May showbiz career at Elise siya so what do I expect?

"Finally." Kitang kita ko ang inis sa mga mata ni Lae because I am 30 minutes late. Buti na lang at nakahanda na ang make up artist at ang susuotin ko ngayon. Lae would kill me for sure kung hindi ako nakapunta. "Chill,babe" I teased her. I hugged her tightly and whisphered "Ang pangit mo" with that I left her, mouth hanging. "Isabelle.." She called me at pinandilatan niya ako ng mata.

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