Chasing Time

五 (Go)

"It would be enough for the depressing things in life to only exist in reality. It is because that I think the birth of a story is from people dreaming of a happy ending." (Kanon)

credits: imperfection201

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Under the shade of the sakura tree, with its leaves swaying as the wind passed by, I could feel his eyes boring a hole through me.

I gulped a lump that formed in my throat. Knowing how painful this'll be, I know I have to face him.

I have to face Takara Jin.

I looked at Ryusaki across me and saw his lips forming a frown as he studied me. I couldn't really blame him. I must have seemed strange with my hair all messed up by the wind and my face distorted as I tried my best to deceive them that nothing was wrong with me.

And let me tell you, it wasn't easy at all.... especially if you feel like crap inside.

I mustered all my guts and stood up, ignoring the exchange of confused looks by the guys around me. I rounded the corner of the bench and faced him.

He almost knocked the air out of me as my eyes landed on him. His now muscular body was standing just some feet away from me with his light brown curls being tossed by the wind.

After almost a year, I managed to take in his appearance again. And I was wrong to assume that nothing had changed.

Everything looked so different now.

Those hazel eyes that I used to love so much were staring down at me. The sweet expression on his face, that had always appeared everytime he looked at me, was now turned into a very hard one. His furrowed eyebrows and tight angular jaw, accentuated it even more.

After a long minute, my voice eventually found my tongue, "You're here."

His pursed lips quivered for a second before speaking, "I'm here."

"You two know each other?"

I ignored that question from his classmate but rather, stepped closer to him with my heart pounding like crazy.

He didn't even bulge on his position.

"I heard what happened. Why? Why did you..?"

He didn't answer me but still kept looking at my face as if memorizing every detail on it.

"Is it because of him? Is it-"

"It's nothing," he dismissed, with his baritone voice piercing through my heart. "Forget it."

"You aren't like this, Jin," I said, stepping closer. I gazed at his eyes, trying to unearth answers from them,"I know who you are and you're far from this."

His expression grew harder and his eyes feral. "This is my life so don't barge and act like you know everything!"

"I-"

"This is none of your business! And you don't even need to f*cking care!" he said harshly and I heard gasps from around us. I almost forgot that we were in front of his friends and, unfortunately,, in front my roommates.

But I could care less right now.

"Hey! That's too-" one of his classmates butted in but it was too late, I already snapped.

"I don't need to care? Why, Jin? Does it not cross your mind, even once, that this doesn't just affect you? That maybe there is someone who's far more miserable than you? That maybe there's someone regretting everything other than you? I-I even think of killing myself and you're saying I don't know anything?"