Hate myself

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A/N

I'm so sorry for the wait! I just got home from my vacation and my phone broke! I'm currently writing on my Laptop until I get a new phone, ill go to the shops tomorrow to see if I can buy a new one.

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"What are we?...."


Obanai POV

I got dragged into a random room and he asked me with a very serious face and tone what we were. If I have to be honest, I myself didn't know what we were, were we just friends or?...No! I think it's too early to ask him to be my boyfriend. 

I could see him waiting patiently for an answer but I didn't have one, so i just said what came to mind first.

"How about I court you first?" 


Tomioka POV

"How about i court you first?"

I wasn't happy hearing that, but at least i know that he will think about our relationship. I was really hoping that he'd say we should get together but i understand, if i were him i wouldn't have asked said that...

But still... It hurts, i thought we both liked each other...

No! Giyuu, we talked about this with Kocho before, we shouldn't start this shit again.


Obanai POV (Dang i keep switching the POVs, sorry :(    )

I could see the disappointed look on Tomioka's face, i really hated seeing him like that...

I'm sorry Giyuu, but i can't date you just yet and i have good reasons.

1. We are Hashiras and it would hurt so much if we lose each other if we get to close

2. We are very busy and don't have enough time for lovely dovely things

3. I still need to think about my feelings for Kanroji

4. This isn't the best place to confess and become a couple, if it would ever happen, I would make that moment magical, best in a Sakura garden or something like that.

5. I still don't really feel comfortable taking my bandages of


So yup those are some of my reasons


Time skip 2 Weeks later (sorry I'm very lazy but i can assure you nothing really happened between them during those 2 weeks, just missions)


It's been already 2 Weeks since i last saw him, normally two Weeks aren't really long to me, but this time, it felt like Years...

I wanted to see him, tell him how much he meant to me, express my feelings, but couldn't, cause why should i?

I'm just a freak, who wasn't even born to a normal family, no they were thief's, all of them. I'm a dirty Person (No its not what you think get your dirty minds washed 😤🙁) with filthy Hands and a Bad Mouth, words come out of this Bad Mouth like they are some kind of compliment when its the exact opposite.

I'm sorry to everyone, everyone that sees me as a friend or more, I'm nothing more then a Comrade or a stranger.

"I hate myself"







Word count: 479

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