Everything does the diagnosis took a toll on my sanity but in the end it enabled my body to withstand the wear and tear of war... I parse the moon everyone I had close I'm either against or already dead to me...I need to one day kill everyone I know work with to complete my training and return to what I have stolen...I don't want to I have to...Then I can intertwine with the rest and be returned to a place of peace where no harm can came to me and I can cause no harm so my body can finally be destroyed and I finally silenced no more pain no more harm just peace and silence...