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I'm done

So I tried to see if I could sleep in my room and parents said no

Bc my bed is in there room bc they want more "family time"

And r saying I look "happier" 

What bullshit

I feel worse than I felt before bc 

When I was in my room at night I would legit read wattpad bc I was haveing a shitty day

On top of the I can't sleep bc my pare are start talking outa no where like wtf

And blame it all on my phone

I'm in bed rn and I wa-I mean still crying bc my dad yelled At me 

Bc I wouldn't go to sleep and was being to happy

I was doing that because he look unhappy and I wanted him lol to be happy

And he told me I'm"Is it to hard lol to shut ur eyes and sleep"

Ik I can be annoying sometimes 

But I just want people to be happy even if it's just for a day 

I don't want my friends feeling like Shit

My parents are 2 faced

In public they try to act perfect

But at home they try to fix the smallest thing about myself

Like they're doing it so much to the point I get hurt each and ever time

And each time I tell myself "I'll get used to this it's fine"

Even now I'm telling my self that I'll get used to this and I hope it's true 

Bc I don't want to end up Crying in school 

Since I don't want to get bullied 

It like 1 am rn 

Also my mom I told her all my problems bc Ik she wouldn't judge as much 

And Itold her about doku and mei like 4 times

And she still calls them my friends like wtf 

And I understand she's a housewife and has a lot of work and will forget quickly which is understandable 

But when she asks what's wrong and talks to me about it and forgots everything in like an hour it hurts 

Even my consular knows my name remembers my problems and know about my metal state better than anyone else

And I feel like an 

-Asshole

-Bitch

Motherfucker

-Dumbass

Bc I've been tired of everything now days 

-My parents only carding about my grades

-School + friends drama

-doku and mei's bullshit

- myself I don't like mirrors seeing my self for half and hours and getting uncomfortable since My bedroom's closet is  mirror 

I think a bunch of people reading this think I'm a pick me and fishing for problems 

I'm not I just using this as a place to vent freely so I won't have people from school seeing my problems.

And people on wattpad r very nice and sweet

Online people and general r very nice

Like Genshin impact co-op players 

I'm like under my blanket and it's getting hot 

I

Also something in friend group happens which I might tell in a couple of weeks since it's really mess up and happens yesterday and overall my friends that were involved r not the best rn so um

Yeah

Also if u have shit going in your life feel free to chat with me

Also the "I spend a day with" episodes on yt r hella comforting 

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