His regrets

Asshole

Jared's Pov

My nightmares worsen day by day ,night by night.i almost hurt myself last night with a broken glass,if not for my mom I would be in the hospital for hurting myself.i have not been taking my drugs for about three years and it eating me up badly.i express my anger on my school mates, teachers and even the principal, some say am spiolt cause am stinky rich .but hey it my parents money not mine ,I have my on money but it undercover cause am an Author actually. Ever since Rikki died ,I wrote a story named Falling For The Wrong Person,well the story is famous and all that ,I received so many awards but nobody knows who the author truly is ,well I wrote so many stories after that but it always end on a sad note,I can't actually bring myself to write a happy story. Well Falling For The Wrong Person is actually the story of my life, Gabriella and Rikki and all that . people felt pity for the protagonist John,well that my middle name so I decided to use it for the protagonist of the novel, Even my friends didn't know who the author is aside from Levi he knows about my past life and my middle name.my mom and dad are doing their possible best to make me okay,but I am not taking my drugs i only fill the can with mint.i want to leave this place after high school,I want to get away from this damn country,this country holds alot of memories of my past life if not for my stupid act my sister would be right here .if she had kill me that day I would be happy cause all I bring to this family is sorrow.

I went to my bathroom and I took my bath,I brushed my teeth,I just stared at myself in the mirror,I have changed alot,I look tough ,strong and mean .I just sighed and head to my closet ,I put on a sweat pants and blue top with my boots.i decide to go to a place to make me happy,I decide to go to the park,I took my phone ,car keys and a apple with a final glance at my house i zoomed off.

Jackiella's Pov

It has been three weeks after my attack and life had been the best ,mom ,yes I mean Flora has been the best,she always made sure me and Anna were happy. Anna returned to college three days after I was discharged,she always call and video call me daily.i really miss my sister but she have a future to chase after .well I got enrolled into a new school and will be resuming in the next two days.i promised myself not to let anyone ever know that I have lung cancer,I just want to be happy and enjoy my short little life.i stared at my room and there was nothing to do,I read all the books already and arranged my cloth in my closet and made sure my shoes,canvas were properly cleaned and positioned.well I really love this Author named John James,his stories are so amazing,but it a love sad novel.my favorite of all his novel is Falling For The Wrong Person,the book is more than awesome the protagonist John fell in love with a badass girl named Gabriella and things didn't work out for them,so she ended up killing his little sister,crazy right.i hate the fact the house was silent,my mom and the bastard I call a father are at work,I need to get out of this place and have fun  ,where can I go to ,yes the park ,I love that place it so fun .i stood up and went to my closet I searched through my dresses and I decide to wear a crazy jean and crop hoodie,it put on my canvas and I packed my hair in a ponytail ,I went downstairs to eat some food and fruits,I cleaned the kitchen and ate my food quietly.my dad can be so fucking annoying ,I haven't seen him for a week now the last time I saw him home,he was drunk ,he is drowning himself with work and Flora just keep smiling as if nothing Is wrong but it damn obvious.i really feel bad for her cause my family is so shitty and she got dragged into the mess.i wash my plate and I left my house.when I got to the park ,I  was scared of coming out my car cause according to my doctor any hits on my chest reduce my life span ,so that means I have to be careful taking a deep breath I opened the door  ,the environment screamed happiness ,I couldn't help but smile this park holds alot of memories when my family was still happy,my parent, my sister and I will come here every Saturday .my mom always made cookies and my chocolate pudding.my feet just kept moving when I decide to check where I am a saw a hot charming prince ,he is drop dead gorgeous.how can someone be this handsome I kept staring at him daydreaming.he punched the other guy ,as if it wasn't he enough he yelled at him and kept hitting the boy.i couldn't take it anymore I walked up to Mr handsome,I held his hand as he wanted to hit the guy again.his eyes shot up too look at me and then he looked at my hand holding his and the bullied guy ran away .Mr handsome stood straight only then did I notice how tall he is ,he has greyish blue has that I felt like I was drowning in them just by staring,long eyelashes ,sharp jaw line and he was muscular ,his lips like soft rose petals ,I  stared at the Greek god standing in front of me.

Why did you hold my hand and why are you still holding it .he ask rudely

How rude ,he is handsome but rude what a waste .my inner self scolded but I didn't say anything I just kept staring at him ,I think his eyes are intoxicated,cause hell I can't stop looking at them .I started biting my lips and chewing my inner lips.he looked so dangerous ,but still harmless.

Like what you see.he said smirking and he took one step closer to me,I didn't move I just stood there like my legs were rooted to the ground.

Mhhmm,was all my stupid self could say.he is just a boy c'mon stop daydreaming Jackiella my inner self scolded me harshly.The boy took a step closer to me and he was so fucking close to me ,he bad to bend his head to look at me.Thank you so much ,I know am short but you don't have to rob it on my face ,I wanted to say but I bit my tongue.

You are still holding my hands you know .Mr handsome said again but still I didn't let go of his hand I think am getting mad or something ,why in the name of holy God am I still holding his hands.the boy smirked and he lowered his head and now my head and his were in the same level .

You aren't letting go he said breathing on my lips ,what is this stupid feeling in my stomach I ask myself.And I felt something soft on my lips that send shivers down my spine .he was kissing me and I was kissing back my inner self was yelling at me to push him off but my heart and body where doing something without thinking.he kissed my left eyes the right my nose ,jaw ,ear lobe and he gently bite my neck and my knees felt weak ,like it melted I couldn't help but release a strange voice and Mr handsome chuckled,he kept sucking on the same spot on my neck and I kept releasing that strange noise.my phone vibrated In my pocket,but as if the boy was deaf he continues kissing me ,coming back to my senses with all the strength I could summon I pushed him away and raced to my car ,I picked the call.

Hey little sissy,Anna said

Hi sis ,I managed to say but my voice ended up coming out rough.

Am home but the door is locked ,are you fine you sound strange,I hope you are taking your medications and I hope you didn't leave the house cause you are down.my sister bombarded me with questions.

Gud thing you are home ,an fine I promise you I am ,am on my way .love you I said and I hanged up and drove home happy my sister is back.

    A/N:hi guys ,I missed this book cause it has been long I updated but school got the best of me ,being in the final year of highschool is one tough work with lessons and project works.i will try to update faster .I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter.pls vote and comment and share to friends.

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