Pain {Hood}

Local Kid Lies About Pain Fetish To His Sister

Journal Entry 5

I told Mom that I wanted to start seeing a therapist today and she practically jumped for joy.

I can tell she wants me to be different.

She wants a son that doesn’t openly have a weird ‘fetish’ for pain.

I wish she would accepted me.

I wish I didn’t like pain so much.

I wish I didn’t have to lie to my sister about the bandages on my arms.

She thinks I have this skin thing where my arms break out or whatever.

I love Mali so much.

I wish I wasn’t such a disappointment.

I wish ‘disappointment’ wasn’t such a long word, but it is and I guess I’m just going to have to deal with it.

I’ve come to realize that the world is not a wish-granting genie in a bottle.

There are certain things I’m just going to have to get though.

And I guess I can live with that.

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its short bc calum aint feeling good and he hates everything.

btw that picture is calum at the wedding mmmmHHHHHHm