LISTEN TO THE SONG
Journal entry 1
Two years to this day, I started cutting.
It’s not the bad cutting, I just like it.
I don’t hate myself.
I swear I don’t hate myself.
Everyone thinks it’s because I hate myself, but I don’t.
The pain just feels good.
Almost too good.
I don’t know.
My mom thinks it’s strange and doesn’t like it.
But if it was her that enjoyed the pain she would feel like I do.
I don’t see why it’s a problem.
Yes, I know I’m cutting up and bruising a perfectly good body, but at least I’m not doing cocaine or anything else.
Mali, my sister, doesn’t know about it yet.
Mom says she’s too ashamed to tell her daughter that her son cuts himself.
Mali-koa is the perfect daughter.
She’s a straight A student, she has a nice boyfriend and she’s just over all a good person.
I’m just Calum; nothing special.
Just Calum.
And I’m ok with that.
Just Calum is perfectly fine with me.
Mom doesn’t think so; she thinks I hate myself.
I don’t.
I’m me and I’m ok with being me.
I just enjoy the pain.
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I AM NOT PROMOTING OR SAYING ITS OK TO SELF HARM.
IF YOU ARE HARMING YOUR SELF IN ANY WAY YOU ARE A THREAT TO YOUR SELF AND YOU NEED SOME GOD DAMN HELP.
CALUM IS HURTING HIMSELF BECAUSE HE IS MASOCHISTIC (that means he enjoys pain)
K THANKS BYE
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Pain {Hood}
Short Story(BOOK 2 OF THE EMOTION SERIES) In which, a boy likes to hurt him self and doesn't see why its a problem.
