roommates || billie eilish

•twenty three•

billie's pov:

"thank you so much clauds"

i hear finneas acknowledge claudia, so i assume she's here to one, stop by to see finneas, two, bring his guitar, and three, see me for the first time since i've been in this bitch

even though my eyes are closed and all, im picking up on the fact that it seems to be getting darker

so it's probably, eh, 7:30

i'm starting to get hungry, but i can't do shit about that so i'm just going to have to wait here i guess

***

finneas's pov:

i catch my eyes zoning out in the hall again. i can't tell what i'm looking at, but it's blurry and like one and a half of everything

my therapist would call that disassociating from what's going on around me, which i guess you could say is true... sometimes

before i'm able to even realize, billie's doctor is standing in front of me, waiting to speak

"if you could call your parents in here sometime soon, that would be great"

i nod slowly, trying to understand what is going on

"we believe we have figured out what's going on with your sister. good thing is, it's nothing critical that needs surgery or something, but that's also the bad thing, we kind of just have to give her time and let it pass. there's nothing other than checking her vitals during the day, that we can do to make sure she is doing okay"

again, i nod slowly, still confused

"this is a lot, i'm sure, so take some time to process the bit of information i've already given you. if your parents could be here within two hours, that would be great. i leave for the night soon, and i can't judge your feelings, but based off experience, right now, i'm probably the person you're most comfortable with around this place"

my eyes starting doing that things again. i guess this is just a nervous habit at this point, so i let it happen

***

"finneas"

"finneas"

"yo, fin"

that was claudia

of course

"hi baby" i finally reply, leaning in for a kiss, which i'm granted

grabbing my guitar, i acknowledge claudia's kindness, to grab this all for me

"thank you so much for doing this. i don't know what i could have done without you"

with that, she takes a seat next to me, looking down at billie in the bed, as if she is a precious newborn baby

"i need to quick call my parents, if you don't mind"

"no that's fine" she replies as i step out into the hall

my mom and dad left like an hour ago to get some real food, so i should probably get them updated about things a little bit

calling mom

"the doctor came in about, eh, twenty minutes ago" i begin, checking my wrist for the time

"okay, and?"

"he wants you and dad to come in because he has some news to share"

"okay, well be in in like 20 minutes; with the food too"

"okay, see you then"

***

i plucked each string softly and adjusted the pegs accordingly on my guitar

"billie, i'm going to play some stuff we've worked on together, sing along in your head if you want"

i began playing chords to one of the most meaningful of billie's songs

"it's not true"

i played a little more

"tell me i've been lied to"

again, i plucked some more notes

"crying isn't like you"

i hummed along with the melody

i continued for the rest of the song and ended with a long, final "i love you"

___

so i'm getting back at this slowly, but no promises

i sorta forced myself to write this at midnight because of billie's twentieth  birthday

i mean, in theory it was yesterday because it's one in the morning now, but happy birthday to bil!

i love you

-c🪐